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if dreaming would be the only way
for you to stay
with me by my side
i would wish to sleep forever
and always say never
to wake up so i can ride
with the things easier and better
just like continuously reading a love letter

am i still making sense?
do you still get what im saying?
i dont know if im in the right tense
what am i portraying?

im not thinking of anything right now
but im asking how
how can i release the thoughts in my head
i wish i can let go of it before im dead

things are clouding my mind
and i cant feel anything from behind
floating astray
looking for a better way
to where i can go from here
trying to face my fear

looking at nowhere
at a pitch black background is where i stare
breathing
thinking
listening
whats hap’nin?
is my world still spinnin’?

its one o’clock
still awake and waiting for my world to rock
everything seemed to stop for a moment
did someone put cement?

someone is nudging from behind the screen
with two gummy bears red and green
there are messages that are still unread
why wouldn’t i stop this first with my aching head?
so i can know whats hap’nin
but would it make a difference and make my world start spinnin’?

i start to scratch my head
what do you think she said?
i think i dont want to read it
i just want to write more and just sit
on a lousy computer chair
and think of something that seems fair

lis’nin to a song
i want to know what’s wrong
is it a sin to ask for a miracle?
im just hoping that everything is just an obstacle

why are they like that?
they all seem unfair
when would they give us a fair share?

lis’nin to a song
that i gave her some time before
its not that long
but it means a lot more

she’s the one who made me write again
only difference is that im not using a pen
what the heck?!
does that even matter?
so what if im using notepad?
stop it before i get mad!

Princess of Disguise
the song that’s playin
im not sure what’s the meanin
but it sure is somethin

i dont know what state i am in
i want to kill myself with a pin
wait.. do i need to drag this file to the recycle bin?
coz im talking nothing and it wont make me win

what’s with this?
would a reader understand what im sayin?
coz even i dont know what’s being written
or am i just badly beaten?

butterfly knife
the song of yesterdays life
i want to use this and end it all
i wanna break this wall
before my world will fall
would i end up devastated? and just crawl?
crawl away to oblivion
if that is the only solution

i dont know anything
about what’s happening
where can i get some light?
to my answers as dark as night?

i am still young
with a sharp tongue
where would i go?
and how would i grow?
im lost
just like a ghost
who came from nowhere
and im going to get lost in thin air

your favorite song is playing again
and the question that’s on my mind is when
its the song that you want to be played on your wedding
i just wish for a happy ending

i got disconnected
is this even related?
im gonna read the messages now
could you please tell me how?
i dont know what to say
but i wish she’d stay

here i go
but wait
what’s my fate?
i fear the words that im gonna read
Lord please help me…im in need

~ by PRiSMz on August 12, 2008.