Imperfection

Sometimes…

A person’s imperfection can help you appreciate someone else’s flaw.

Kotong-Cops

SUPPOSEDLY… police officers should make people feel secure when they’re around. CURRENTLY… police officers make people feel insecure, threatened and taunted when they’re around!

Sugarcoated Happiness

Happiness can just be superficial. Happiness can be a lie. Nevertheless, be contented with that kind of happiness. After all, it made you happy… may it be unreal or just a mask to sugarcoat the bitterness in you.

Ulila sa Diwa ng Pasko

Diba dapat mas mabait nga ang mga tao ngayon dahil Pasko? Bakit ang susungit at ang kukupal parin kausap nung iba?! Parang walang nagbago at parang mas lumala pa ata…!

Yuletide Bitches

It’s Christmas and some people are still acting like BITCHES! Can’t these people take a break from bein’ such a bitch and be nice for a while?!

Pakikisama

Hindi kailangang makibagay para lang makisama…

At hindi rin lahat ng bagay kailangang pagbigyan para lang sa pakikisama.

Bitches

There are a lot of bitches in the world today. Sometimes you don’t know what to do with them. Maybe they just need to get laid…so they can release their animalistic or bitchy aspect in a more useful way!

Spoon-feeding

Hindi kinakailangan isubo ang lahat ng bagay sa bunganga natin…

May utak naman tayo na pwedeng gamitin.

Bastos

Hindi lahat ng tao na may trabaho at may pinagaralan ay may modo!

Idealistic Perspective

What’s the use of being the best?

If you’re not a daredevil to take on the challenges and not crazy enough to take the risks…

Choice

Continue if its worth the pain…

Stop if you’re starting to lose your sane…

Growing Up

We must learn as we grow old…

Tactlessness

Fewer words to utter…

Leads to lesser mistakes…

Contentment

Always be contented with what you are…

But never stop dreamin’ of reachin’ a star!

Daily Routine

Have you thanked the Lord today?

Fleeting tune

I’m going to miss reading the lines of your poem… while swaying with the rhythm of your melody…

And lis’nin’ to your beautiful song…

Physics

Would it be more damaging if you’ll be using mass more than acceleration to hit a target?

Pamamahala sa buhay ng iba

Huwag mong kontrolin ang buhay ng ibang tao…

Kung ang sarili mong buhay… HINDI MO KAYANG KONTROLIN!

Her choice

I sat beside her… lis’nin’ to her voice. And I said to myself, ‘damn! i really love her!’…

Even if… being friends is what she prefer…

Questions and Regrets

Never question God. And stop regretting anything in your life.

On my death

What if my next sigh… would be my last chance to breath in and out?

Will you come to me to cry and shout?

Guessing Game

Tell me to stay and I will love you forever. Tell me to go away and set you free…

And I will try to forget you even if it hurts me…

Sweetest Song

Her thoughts are organized like a poem; statements arranged like a melody;

And she perfectly delivers it like a song!

Smile Behind a Dream

Your smile is like a breathtaking red afternoon sunset…

Seen behind a green clutter of vegetation!

Adobe End-Of-Life (EOL) Prayer

Jesus, take the wheel… we’re letting go…

Please lead us to a better and safer path… save us from this road we’re on…

Love Games

You picked me up and dropped me off.

Yesterday you saw me… now you wont!

Women and Respect

WOMEN were created to be RESPECTED.

And not to be USED and PLAYED WITH!

Quietus

If this would just be a dream… I would choose to sleep forever.

No matter how impossible it may seem… I just want us to be together!

God’s Time

With His will… in His time…

Everything will be just fine…

Trabaho

Ang sweldo ba dapat nakabase sa dami ng alam?

O sa dami ng ginagawa?

Pag-uugali

Hindi lang ikaw yung tao dito sa mundo.

Kung sa palagay mong importante ka, umayos ka! Huwag kang umasta na para kang diyos!

Comprehension

If A-B-C is simple enough as 1-2-3…

How can we make it more simple to make stupid people understand that it is just so easy?

Silent Escape

Come with me and grab my hand…
Don’t ask anything ‘coz soon you’ll understand.
Let us run together towards the light…
Out of everyone else’s sight!
Even just for a day…
Let us escape from reality and forget everything if you may…

Escape

Come… let’s run! And catch the blaze of the sun…

As ‘life’ has just begun!

The Human Composition

99% of what we are is what GOD has made of us.

1% is what we have made of ourselves. But that 1% can be a really big deal. As this is what we call our… FREE WILL!

Battle Cry

I’m no small fry!

The Scorpion’s Prey

My claws are good enough to catch you off guard.

But don’t wait ’til I use my sting. As I can make you strangle and have you totally helpless in my arms tonight.

Faith

Believe in Him who believes in you…

More than anyone else do…

Better Chemistry

We met somewhere we never expect,
this feeling I would never suspect.
If I tell you now what’s on my mind…
Will you come with me and leave him behind?

Faithfulness

ONLY FAITHFUL MEN has the BALLS!

Because REAL MEN stick to ONE!

Death around your arms

Would you let me lay down and rest forever?

Or would you prefer to hold me around your arms and let me die on your shoulder?

Waiting and Watching

I sat beside her… lis’nin’ to her voice. And I said to myself… “Damn! I love you!”

And that’s when I realized that my feelings was indeed… true!

Sinful Speck

I’m just a sinful dust in the wind…

Compared to His Greatness and Kindness…!

Blessed Routines

In everything that you do…

Try your very best to do it for the glory of GOD!

What is love?

Love is when you can turn a moment into… FOREVER!

Mistakes and Temper

Don’t easily get mad at someone else’s mistake.

Because… you might have also done the same or similar mistake in the past.

Christmas for an Adult Kid

We always hear the phrase… “Love is in the air” But have you heard of Christmas is in the air?

I dunno… Is Christmas really just for kids?

Why is it that… I can hear and smell Christmas. But I just can’t feel it? Or… am I just denying the fact that I can feel Christmas?

Am I just trying to make myself feel comfortable? Am I just forcing myself to not feel or see myself as a loser?

Why do I feel this way? It’s the feeling that, you know Christmas is coming. You can hear the cheers and laughs of the children on the streets; You can hear them playing with their toys; You can feel the coldness of dusk; Longer nights and shorter days; People playing Christmas songs; People thinking of gifts to give this Christmas. All these… can make you feel and think that Christmas is a few weeks away. But why was I able to mention the word “feel” just now? Is it really true that I can feel Christmas? Or do I still want to deny the fact that I can feel it?

Is something missing? Or am I just missing something? Does that make sense?

Is  it maybe because that I’m longing to share my Christmas with someone? Would it be because that I have no one special aside from my family to share Christmas with? Or is this the loneliness and emptiness that someone feels with no one to share the love this Christmas?

Am I just trying to avoid the fact that I’m a loser?

As of this writing, I am now 24. Based on a Manga which is titled “GTO – Shonan 14 Days” (thanks to Mhaezthro for sharing this to me), Onizuka Eikichi who is just 22, was already considered as an adult. Then, what more in my case? Geezzz… I’m in my mid twenties already! Some at my age already have kids. Some even married. But why do I feel excited? Or why do I feel this way? Something that a kid feels when Christmas is near.

Well I may say that I’m not a total loser. I bet that I’m not that difficult to be loved by someone. But… why?

Why is the emptiness swallowing me? Eating me alive. Or is it just me? …that has the problem?

Or is it just the fact that the persons that I want to share my life and Christmas with… just can’t be with me?

Christmas is near. Christmas is all around me. But when will Christmas enter me?

These are the questions that I want to be answered.  Questions that I want to clear with myself. Questions that create a void in me. Answers that I wanna see…

Daldal

Kung wala kang alam na matinong sabihin…

Tumahimik ka nalang… bago pa kita patahimikin!

Tired

Teach me how to stop existing…

Events

Things do happen… in God’s time…

Trust. Live. And let go!

Secret

I wanna tell yah somethin’ that i wouldn’t want yah to know…

Growing Old

We must learn as we grow old…

Mr. Big

Don’t tell me who the fuck or what the fuck you are!

Just show us what you are really made of!

Processes

People with higher positions should know & understand that each department has their own set of standard processes to follow!

Good Example

Be a good example to your subordinates…

And not a scum that everybody hates!

Pain

If the only way to take away this pain is to take away my breath…

Take it now… and give me a meaningful death…!

Letting go

Sometimes we just need to let go…

Because nothing lasts forever!

Sanity

What would we gain?

Behind those pain? Nothing… but SANE!!!

Common Mistake

One of the most common mistakes in life that we commit…

Is to think that… “this is it!”

Thankful

We should be REALLY thankful… despite our hardships in life!

Robbery at the time of crisis

Tangina!!! Ang MAAYOS na kalsada… wala pang isa’t kalahating buwan mula nung matapos… GINIGIBA NANAMAN!!! Ampotah… sa problema na nararanasan ng Pilipinas ngayon… nagawa pang magnakaw nanaman! Imbis tulungan ang mga nasalanta, hayun at nangungurakot pa rin sa kaban ng bayan! Taena… sana makonsiyensya naman kayo!!!

Mother Nature’s Statement

It’s payback time!

Road Repairs

What’s the use of repairing a patch of road… AND REPAIRING IT AGAIN AFTER 2-3 MONTHS?! DAMN FUCKIN’ POLITICIANS!!! Trying to make the most out of it before they let go of their positions by 2010! Go to hell fuckers!! Dahil sa inyo traffic nanaman ngayon! Mga PAKSHYET!!!!!

First Job. First Love.

You get the feeling that something is not right… something is missing.

You just don’t fit in. Lately realizing that it was everything in Adobe all along that made the difference!

Pig

It’s better to look like a pig…

Than act like a pig!

Questions

Don’t ask a question…

If you don’t wanna know the answer!

Neighboring Elements

Never be too complacent with the elements around you…

Kayabangan

Huwag kang magmayabang kung sa tingin mong wala ka pang ibabatbat…

Pero kung magaling ka naman… huwag ka pa rin magmayabang. Matuto ka pa rin magpakumbaba.

Obvious Mistakes

Drop it while its hot!

Don’t wait for it to scorch your fingers… or your life!

Kagandahan at Disiplina

Ang ganda mo sana… kaso wala kang disiplina!

Kasing pangit mo na tuloy yung basura na tinapon mo sa kalsada!

Blindness and Disability

Blindness is not a total disability.

It can make you flow with the song and can help you create a melody with your emotions with ease!

Blindness and Sensitivity

Blindness can make your senses sensitive to most of the elements.

But can either leave you helpless or most sensitive to sense a lie.

Taong Nagmamalinis

Kung magsalita ka… parang ang linis linis mo!

Tignan mo muna kaya ang sarili mo… ano sa palagay mo? Ikaw ba ay perpekto?!

Cheating

Put your guard up… let’s learn how to stop!

Girl we ain’t goin’ nowhere… let’s start givin’ life a fair share!

Fate

Why worry and waste your time thinking of what could possibly happen?

If everything has already been written…

Life As a Course

Life is a course that cannot be completed in just 4 or even 10 years!

…we can learn it only by going through it again and again and again!

Mind

Keep it open… keep it free.

There is so much out there… for you to see!

Tawa at ngiti

Sa bawat tawa, may kapalit na luha…

Sa bawat ngiti, may kapalit na pighati…

Life and cards

Life ain’t gonna give you the cards to continue playin’…

You need to earn those cards as you play… to stay in the game!

Time vs Opportunity

Why wait for the right time…

If you already have the right opportunity?

Dream

Any dream is sweet…

As long as you are there for me to meet…!

Physical Injury

Physical injury gained in any way is just temporary.

But not from a man against a woman… in a relationship!

Questions

If your heart has a lot of questions…

Make sure that your heart is open for its answers.

Life

Life…

GOT THE BALLS FOR IT?!

Acceptance

Acceptance…

Can heal what time… CANNOT!

Tasks

Don’t tell me what to do…

Because it has already been done!

Presence

I will always be there for you…

Until… You want me to…

Thoughts

It’s no use sharing your thoughts…

If no one even cares to listen!

Change

Stop reacting with change.

Instead… start adapting to it!

Memory

And you’re just gonna be…

A figment of my memory…

Way out

There’s always an easier way out.

We just need to find out where or what it is and how to go around it.

Coma

I’d rather be in a coma…

If I won’t see you tonight…

insomnia

is there such a thing as an immunity to reality?
if the only way to take away this pain is to take away my breath…
take it now… and give me a meaningful death…!

we always say that we want this person to be our last..
but how can we be so sure if we have always said this in our past?

we always get there…
problem is… we get lost somewhere
hoping and dreaming that things will be alright
but in every statement… it makes us awake all night!
trying to stand and willing to fight
in the end we usually have that person… out of sight!

that’s why if every good and sweet thing is just a dream…
i would choose to sleep forever
no matter how impossible it may seem…
i just want us to be together

stay awake… feel reality
feel the pain! coz its for eternity!
there is no immunity…
just plain purity!

would you stay awake and dream during the day?
while someone makes you realize that everything wont stay?
or just continue dreaming that you’re swaying
swaying with the one that keeps you smiling

sigh.. im dreaming while wide awake
thinking what’s at stake
all of this for love’s sake
so how can someone tell its fake?!

maybe i just need some sleep
as there are so many thoughts to keep
i wanna shout out what’s in me
but geezzz… i just cant set it free!!

can you just stop?!

why does it have to be this way?
you suddenly came in and tell that you wanna stay!
c’mon! can you just stop?!
just out of the blue you came out and pop!

can you please stop calling?!
she may still feel something
but she doesn’t want you anymore
can’t you realize?! you’ve already made her heart sore!

can you just stop sending messages?
can’t you think of the possible damages?
c’mon dude! i know you aint stupid!
dont try to call on cupid!

things ain’t gonna be the same
you should put yourself to shame
she stayed and loved you before
and are you gonna come back to give her more?!

could you just sit on your chair?
keep on dreamin’ alone and breathe some air!

i don’t want you in her life!
she’s no longer your wife!

leave her alone!
stop ringing her phone!

you have done enough!
do you need any other stuff?!

so what if she could still feel the old flame?
how sure are you that things wouldnt be lame?!
you made her sick of what you’ve done
i tell you.. this is no freakin’ fun!

i told you that you have done too much!
she no longer needs your touch!
why dont you just keep your eyes shut
you’re just like a knife giving her another cut!

it doesn’t mean that when you told her that you still love her
things will be back the way you both were
how do you think will the wounds heal?
do you think that things will be easy to deal??

for the last time… can you just stop?!
i’m tired seeing her like this!
can you just give her some peace?!
what can i do for you to let go?!
i’ll do anything just for our love to grow!

she’s no longer yours!
as she has already closed the doors!
no…! dont tell her that you still love her!
stop hoping that things will still be the same as they were!

can you just stop?!
i beg you, boi!
stop early if you don’t want me to destroy…
everything.. that you can still… enjoy!

fire me up! and wait til i get out!
don’t wait til i shout…
coz i can end yah without a doubt!

PAYASO

isang ngiti mo lang…
masaya na ako.
mapatawa lang kita
kumpleto na ang araw ko!

kung minsa’y mukha na akong gago
minsa’y ako na ay natutuliro
hindi alam kung ano ang gagawin
paano ba kita patatawanin?

minsan paulit-ulit
pasensiya na kung makulit
ayoko kasi makita kang malungkot
kaya pilit kong tinatanggal ang mukha mong nakasimangot

mukha na ba akong tanga?
sobra na bang kahiya-hiya?
gusto mo na ba akong patigilin?
o gusto mo nang umalis at hindi na ako pansinin?

hayyy… ang hirap naman nito!
pero ayos lang kasi heto ang gusto ko.
wala akong dapat ireklamo.
basta ba masaya ka, ok na ako!

hangad ko lang naman ay ang mapasaya ka…
at ang makita kang tumatawa…
heto kasi ang aking trabaho…
bilang isang… PAYASO…

missing you

i see you everytime i see someone in pink
it just makes me think
especially when i see someone your size
i always picture you in my eyes

i dont want you to get me wrong
because i find it difficult to look for a line in a song
the message sometimes aint exact
it cant tell the whole fact

You’ll gonna ask me if im alright
yes i am.. even if i’ll be awake all night
do You actually believe me?
aww.. c’mon.. im not crazy..

this aint any lyrics that we can search in google
it seems to be a riddle
but no its not
its a result of how the mind blows out
and what a heart can shout

what the heck is this? You might ask..
no… these words aint concealed with any mask
what You read is what You get
dont believe me? wanna bet?

im not sure if im still making sense to You
i know You’re still busy on the queue
am i giving You a hard time on this?
or should i just tell You that its You that i miss?

problema

kaibigan…
ako ay tinamaan…
nanaman!

malamang sabihin mo
hindi na ako natuto
para na akong gago
hindi na ako nagbago

ano ang magagawa ko?
mahal ko ang tao.
ano ang sasabihin mo?
alam ko na… “e di pigilan mo ang nararamdaman mo!”

pero tol, iba to!
mas kumplikado
hindi ko alam kung pano ko ikukuwento
pero tangina… parang ang labo!

sa ngayon, hindi pa niya alam na may alam ako
pero ewan ko lang kung balak niya ring sabihin ang totoo
hindi ko pa naman alam ang buong kwento
kaya ayaw ko rin magsabi sa kung kanino
kahit nga sayo, hindi ko masabi ng deretso

bakit pa ba kasi ako nagpatihulog
alam ko naman na mahirap ang sitwasyon
ako rin sa huli ang mabubugbog
waaahhh hindi ko alam!!! hindi pa kumpleto ang mga impormasyon!!!

nahahalata mo na ba kung gaano kagulo?
hindi ko pa naikukuwento ang lahat pero parang wala nang direksyon ang mundo
hindi ko alam kung kailangan ko ba problemahin
pero minsan kasi… hindi ko maiwasang isipin.

eto ang dasal ko sa amin
di ko nga alam kung ako ba ay Kanyang patatawarin
“Diyos ko, pwede Niyo po ba itong palagpasin?
susubukan ko na ito na ang huli kong kasalanan at pilit kong kakayanin…
O Panginoon, sana huwag Niyo po siyang hayaang umalis…
Mahal ko po siya at hindi ko matitiis.
Diyos ko, ako po sana ay Inyong patawarin…
Gagawin ko po ang lahat para hindi siya magalala sa akin.”
ayos lang ba ang aking dinadalangin?
ano pa kaya ang puwede kong gawin?

malamang magtataka ka… kung ano itong kasalanan na ito…
ano ang iniisip mo?
heto… bigyan kita ng palaisipan…
tingnan mo ang Sampung Utos at tandaan mo ang araw ng aking kapanganakan.

may idea ka na ba?
tungkol sa aking problema?
kung mayroon man…
sa susunod nalang natin ito pagusapan.

ayaw ko pa talaga magkwento sayo
saka nalang siguro
kung nakapagusap na kami ng seryoso
ang hirap kasi ng ganito
parang tinutuldukan mo na ang kwento
kahit hindi mo pa alam kung paano ito tumakbo

wag mo siyang sisihin o pagbintangan
ako ata ay nagtatanga tangahan
wala namang may kasalanan
lahat ng to, walang may kagustuhan
nangyari lang ang dapat mangyari
magiging maayos din naman ang lahat sa bandang huli
ako lang ata ang gumagawa ng sarili kong problema…
ewan ko ba.. para na akong tanga
hindi ko alam kung ano na ang aking ginagawa
natutulala nalang ako at namumutla
sana walang makahalata
atin atin nalang sana
kasi hindi naman kailangan pang malaman ng iba

sana huwag mo muna siya husgahan
unang una..dahil walang sino man ang may karapatan.
dahil kahit alam ng tao ang katotohanan
tangina! hindi sila Diyos para siya’y pagsabihan!

mga taong hindi mo alam kung tunay na kaibigan
kung makaisip sa kapwa parang malinis pa sa puting kapaligiran
kahit mga paring nagsesermon sa misa
kung makapagsalita parang kala mo wala silang maling nagagawa
tao rin naman sila at nagkakamali rin
sana naman ay maging ehemplo sila para sila ay sundin

pero halata namang kung magsalita…
parang hindi nila pinapahayag ang mabuting balita.
masasakit sila bumitaw sa mga biktima
kasi parang sila ay kinokondena
ito ba ay tama???
kaya nakakawalang gana minsan magsimba!
mga paring kala mo’y tutulungan ka umakyat sa langit…
pero ang totoo.. ang mga nagkasala ay naiipit!
nakakasawa na…
mga ibang tao talaga ay masyadong mapanghusga!
hindi kayo Diyos! mga tangina!
mga walang mga karapatan!
masyado kayong naglilinis linisan!

pasensiya na at nawala na tayo sa usapan
nadala ako ng emosyon at hindi ko na napigilan
sobrang umikot na kasi ung mundo ko sakanya
at lahat baka lahat na ng kabaliwan ay magagawa ko na

pinupuntahan ko siya sa opisina
kahit na mahirap at mukha akong tanga.
inaantay ko lang kasi siya makasakay ng taxi
kaya pag nakakasama ko siya, wala pang trenta minuto… oh diba? ang iksi!

muntik pa ako masubsob sa eskalator kakamadali
para lang makita siya at mag baka sakali
baka kasi mayaya ko kumain para makapagusap kahit sandali
at malaman ko ang lahat para wala nang ikinukubli

mahigit kalahating oras ang layo ko sa opisina niya
pero pinilit ko nun takbuhin ang madulas na kalsada
makasakay lang kagad sa tren
at abutin siya kasi baka ako makarating dun ng ten

badtrip! ano ang gagawin ko?!
malamang sabihin mo… “aba! malay ko!”
oo nga naman.. kasi hindi pa ako nagkukuwento.
kulang nalang sigawan ko sarili ko ng tarantado.

masarap masaktan
marami kang matututunan
kaso tanga ka na
kung inulit mo pa
pero ewan ko.. inulit ko ba?
hindi ko na kasi ata maalala…

gusto kong umiyak!
at tumawag ng uwak!
tara! inom na tayo ng alak!
tangina! ang saya ng buhay ko!
seryoso…
masaya to!
kaso kung mahina lang ako…
malamang… matagal na akong wala dito!

ang hirap ng ganito
nawawala ka na sa sarili mo
parang wala ka nang pakealam sa nangyayari sayo
kasi… siya na ang mundong iniikutan mo!

hahahahaha ayos ba tong ginawa ko?
hindi ko alam kung para sayo ito.
o kung para sakin lang talaga?
kasi sobra na akong natatanga.
o para sakanya talaga tong tula?
kasi siya ang dahilan kung bakit ako nakapaglathala.

hayyy… hanggang dito nalang muna.
kasi ako ay may ginagawa pa!
naantala na ang aking trabaho
pero ok lang… minsan minsan lang naman ganito!

Solid na pagkakaibigan,
walang kalimutan,
walang iwanan,
sama-sama sa lahat… pati na sa banatan!

here’s what i wanna tell yah girl

i wanna say i miss you
but i cant
i wanna say that you’ll stay
but i wonder what you’ll say

baby i think im fallin’
why do i feel my heart tremblin’?
you give me this unexplainable happiness
i just cant hide this from the rest

ohhh wow…
i think im crazy now
can you teach me how?
teach me how to stop now

i think you can notice my words
i think you can notice my actions
geezzz im too careless
it seems im entering another kind of mess

why are you so nice to me
you plainly make me happy
but i dont wanna think that you like me too
but why does it seem that we always wait for each other
and now making up with the wasted time

i smile when i see you
but do you smile the same way i do?
c’mon baby… im sorry
i know its not right but im fallin for you really

out of the blue i wrote this stuff
i should be doin’ somethin’ tough
answerin’ cases for the day
but here i am thinkin’ of you and here are the words that i wanna say

im fallin’ baby
but would it still be possible for you to catch me?

the words ‘i do’
just tears me in two

i dont want yah to think of your past
but things aint that easy as both of your words are written at last

damn… babe… if it were not for that ring
for sure i’d be doing another crazy thing!

can you just wear mine instead?
i promise…i’ll try that there will be no more tears to shed!

girl… you make me so happy
but how can things fit to a tee?
of course i want you to be free
im just so out of the ordinary
i need you to stay here with me
but things are just impossible to be that easy

can someone stop me?
i need to be free
but i just cant take my eyes off her
else, everything is in complete blur!

hold my hand… girl
and just let things swirl
let’s make the world revolve around us
and ride with the last passenger bus
leave everything behind as if there’s nothing to worry
it’s just you and me… no need to be sorry

im out of my league
im sure people will shower us with intrigue
i dont care.. im happy
but i also care for you baby
so let me wake up from this dream
i wanna scream!
help me release this steam!
i love you babe to the extreme!

help me, i wanna scream!
i wanna release this steam!
i love you, girl… this aint a dream!
i love you… to the extreme!

ano ba talaga?

ang hirap bitawan ang isang tao
lalo na kung natutunan mo na siyang mahalin
hindi mo alam kung paano mo bibitawan
ni hindi mo nga alam kung paano mo sisimulan

parang mayroon na nga akong ibang gusto
pero pangalan parin niya ang lumalabas sa utak ko
masyado na ako napapalapit sa isa
pero nasasaktan pa rin ako sa nauna

ganito ba talaga pag ikaw ay napamahal?
parang lagi nalang ako nauutal
hindi ko naman talaga siya gusto nung simula
ewan ko ba kung bakit ako bigla rin napatula

english nga sana ang gagawin ko
pero nahirapan ako
o eh ano ngayon?
ano ba kasi ang meron?

hindi ko siya mapakawalan
iniisip ko kung hindi ngayon, kailan?
hindi ko rin naman kasi malaman
ako ba’y mahal din niya talaga? ewan!

yun kasi ang mahirap sa babae
hindi mo alam kung ano ang gusto mangyare
sinusubukan ka ba talaga?
o nagpaparinig na.

kaya minsan hindi mo masabi
para kang aso na hindi matae
walang magawa kundi magantay
hanggang sa ikaw nalang ay maratay

ano ba ang kailangan kong sabihin sa kanya?
eh kung sabihin ko ulit sa kanya na mahal ko siya
sabihan naman nya, ako’y nagdadrama
ano ba talaga?

oo napamahal na ako
kaya nga hindi ko alam ngayon kung mukha na ba akong gago
umaasa… nagaantay…
taena… kailangan ba, ako muna ay mamatay?
iiyak kaya siya kung nakita niya ako na nakahandusay?
lalapit ba siya para sampalin ako?
para lang malaman kung buhay pa ako?
o pipilitin kaya niyang ibangon ako at ilagay ang ulo ko sa braso niya?
at tingnan kung ako’y humihinga pa?

bakit ba ganito ako magisip?
o siguro dahil sa ngayon.. eto lang ang aking trip?
pero… mahalaga kaya ako sa kanya?
o ako lang ay lubusan lang umaasa?
ano ba talaga?

kasi naman…. bakit ba kailangan magkaganito?
totoo naman ako magmahal ng tao
seryoso din naman ako
bakit kailangan mauwi sa pagkalito?
naguguluhan na ako!

ano ba talaga?
mahal nga talaga kita!
eh ako? mahal mo ba?

malamang kung mabasa mo eto…
sasabihin mo nanaman sakin… ANG DRAMA!
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!
taena!

ano ba talaga?
gusto ko nang makawala..
pero di ko magawa!
ako ay nalilito naaaaaa!!!!

ano bang gusto mong gawin ko?
para lang mapaniwala ka na eto’y totoo
ipagsigawan ko sa tao?
bakit hindi…?! maniwala ka lang… ok na ako!

para na akong tanga
paulit ulit.. parang sirang plaka
ano ba talaga?
mahal kita! ayaw mo ba maniwala?

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if dreaming would be the only way
for you to stay
with me by my side
i would wish to sleep forever
and always say never
to wake up so i can ride
with the things easier and better
just like continuously reading a love letter

am i still making sense?
do you still get what im saying?
i dont know if im in the right tense
what am i portraying?

im not thinking of anything right now
but im asking how
how can i release the thoughts in my head
i wish i can let go of it before im dead

things are clouding my mind
and i cant feel anything from behind
floating astray
looking for a better way
to where i can go from here
trying to face my fear

looking at nowhere
at a pitch black background is where i stare
breathing
thinking
listening
whats hap’nin?
is my world still spinnin’?

its one o’clock
still awake and waiting for my world to rock
everything seemed to stop for a moment
did someone put cement?

someone is nudging from behind the screen
with two gummy bears red and green
there are messages that are still unread
why wouldn’t i stop this first with my aching head?
so i can know whats hap’nin
but would it make a difference and make my world start spinnin’?

i start to scratch my head
what do you think she said?
i think i dont want to read it
i just want to write more and just sit
on a lousy computer chair
and think of something that seems fair

lis’nin to a song
i want to know what’s wrong
is it a sin to ask for a miracle?
im just hoping that everything is just an obstacle

why are they like that?
they all seem unfair
when would they give us a fair share?

lis’nin to a song
that i gave her some time before
its not that long
but it means a lot more

she’s the one who made me write again
only difference is that im not using a pen
what the heck?!
does that even matter?
so what if im using notepad?
stop it before i get mad!

Princess of Disguise
the song that’s playin
im not sure what’s the meanin
but it sure is somethin

i dont know what state i am in
i want to kill myself with a pin
wait.. do i need to drag this file to the recycle bin?
coz im talking nothing and it wont make me win

what’s with this?
would a reader understand what im sayin?
coz even i dont know what’s being written
or am i just badly beaten?

butterfly knife
the song of yesterdays life
i want to use this and end it all
i wanna break this wall
before my world will fall
would i end up devastated? and just crawl?
crawl away to oblivion
if that is the only solution

i dont know anything
about what’s happening
where can i get some light?
to my answers as dark as night?

i am still young
with a sharp tongue
where would i go?
and how would i grow?
im lost
just like a ghost
who came from nowhere
and im going to get lost in thin air

your favorite song is playing again
and the question that’s on my mind is when
its the song that you want to be played on your wedding
i just wish for a happy ending

i got disconnected
is this even related?
im gonna read the messages now
could you please tell me how?
i dont know what to say
but i wish she’d stay

here i go
but wait
what’s my fate?
i fear the words that im gonna read
Lord please help me…im in need