Akalain Mo Yun?

Sometimes… the person who you least thought of hurting you…

Is the same person who will hurt you the most!

1 hour 47 minutes

Thinking too much of something wont do you good.

Act on it as you should.

Criminal

I wonder how are you doing
And how things are going
we’ve been so quiet recently
And i wanted to talk to you so desperately
I tried to take every opportunity
But you kept on running away from me

I know that i have started to scare you away
Please don’t. I really want you to stay.
This to you, i must say…
I miss how things came to this way.
I know it is a lot for you to hear
But this will make things clear
Princess, believe me…
I love you and that’s the whole story!

Caffeine

Your laugh and smile is like a song that keeps on playin’ in my head…
While your name is like a melody that I continuously hum.
Your presence is like caffeine…
It doesn’t keep me awake. But it simply keeps my heart on beating faster.

Phantom

I can be the meanest thing under your bed…
The most perverted things can run in my head.
But when you let me take care of your heart…
I’ll guarantee you that I’ll never wreck it apart!

Reach Out

never knew that it would turn out this way
just how can i make through the day?
I’m missing your smile for awhile now.
Your finely chiseled eyes…
now I’m being pushed to give out some lies.

the gap is getting wide
I’m having a hard time to get to the other side
are you gonna reach out your hand when i reach out mine?
or are you gonna ignore me and basically decline?

LSS

LSS Happens… when a song plays to the sound of your heartbeat…
Flows to the rhythm of your soul…
And rhymes to your thoughts of that person that you have in mind.

Stuck

What happens when you got words stuck in your mouth? nothing.
When thoughts got stuck in your head? nothing.
When feelings get stuck in your heart? nothing.
Nothing ever happens when things gets stuck in its place…
But when your mind gets stuck with someone?
All of the above just follows and your focus just gets stuck in that person’s universe.

Distant

All that I can do now is see you from afar.

Being close to you again is something that i would need to wish on a shooting star…

Epicenter

There may be a lot of beautiful girls around…

But you’re the only one right now that’s surely making my world go round!

Q & A

Ask me this.
And i will answer you.
But the question is…
will you answer the same thing too?

Outburst

I don’t think out loud or speak my thoughts to confirm it to myself. Nor i do it to let my friends know or for people to notice
or even for the world to be aware. I do it because i can no longer control and conceal things to myself.

Parallel

You just showed the perfect symmetry that lies beneath my life’s blueprint…

B & W

You gave color to my monotone art…

Regardless

Too much information cant do a thing…

If loving that person is your everything…

Hazelnut

Missing your finely chiseled eyes every time you flash your smile…

Vision

From day ’til night… you’re the first and last thing on my mind…

Tag

it’s making me look stupid… i do not care.
it’s not them… it’s me.
it’s driving me insane… it’s all right.
it’s not the world… it’s you.

Perigree

I may have missed the moon last night…
but I’d rather choose that than missing you tonight…

Struck

Can’t come up with a simple phrase…
All I have in mind is your beautiful face…

Gradient Clouds

Earlier this morning…
I saw one of the most beautiful morning skies…
Earlier this morning…
it would be better if I was looking into your eyes…

Photographic Thoughts

You may have conquered my mind during the day… you may have occupied it too during the night.

And it seems that you have already started to seep into my dreams…

Sunset

You are the gradient sky…

On my landscape masterpiece…

Stills

You are the subject…

Of my still-life photograph…

Loop

Probably… I left your name looped in my head…

I think of it more than I would care of anything else!

Stare

I can look at you the whole day and never get tired…

Accident

Always be thankful if you reached your destination safe -
may the travel be through foot, wheels, rails, sea or air.
Because you may never know when death would be unfair…
to slam your door of life open and grab you in despair!

Deciding Factor

Will a constantly lit Christmas light ever overpower a 3 minute fireworks display?

Coffee Break

We can have a lot of reasons to stay.

But staying… sometimes doesn’t leave us with a reason at all.

Dream of an Answered Prayer

Earlier… you suddenly approached me. Happy and smiling while telling me a story. In my awe, I failed to understand what you have shared. I was just staring at you as my prayers seemed to be answered… happy that things were back as it was before. As if nothing ever happened. Though… the painful thing is… it was just a dream. Just a damn freakin’ dream!

Chance

Once you get a hold of an opportunity… grab it and never take it for granted.

As you may loose it completely and never get a hold of it next time.

Immature

Some things NEVER change… and one good example are those people who never GREW UP!

Care Free

Sometimes… those who care less are the people who ends their day with a bigger smile.

Why? They simply have fewer things to think of and worry about and they don’t give a shit on every single crap that life is throwing unto them.

Tikim

Ang tao minsan, pagka patikman mo lang ng sarap… yun na ang hinahanap hanap.

Tapos kung patikman mo na ng hirap… ayaw na magsumikap.

The Perfect People

Why do some people look at someone else’s mistake as a big deal… while they continue to be blind about their own?

Pasalubong

Sometimes… the humblest of intentions…

Can result to the greatest of harm.

Blessing

It’s better to have something…

Than nothing!

Gift

Enjoying a beautiful life is what people…

Misses… the most!

Black Label

People act as they are for some reason.

They shouldn’t be labeled until their reason is known to whoever wishes to judge them.

Pawns

Not everyone can be on your side.

Because even your closest ally can be a hindrance to your plans.

Coat and Tie

If you want to be successful… look for a career.

And not just a job.

A Test of Faith

GOD really makes a way. Just hang on…

He might just be testing your faith!

Turnilyo

Ang buhay… parang turnilyo… minsan nahihigpitan. Minsan, kailangang luwangan.

Minsan kailangan sagarin. Minsan naman, kailangan nang tanggalin…

Nuts and Bolts

Bolts and nuts are like men and women respectively. You’ll know that the nut wont fit you once you try screwing them. When the right time comes and you realized that the nut is too big or too small for you, stop screwing them. Whatever you do, it will not fit and work. Just wait for the Factory to deliver your perfect nut then prepare yourself to screw yourself in!

Hit and Run

There is no use with running away.
Because the pain will somehow stay.
Face it and bring it on!
One day you’ll be surprised, the feeling is gone!

Reason

The sun never stops from shining.

Even if the clouds keeps on blocking her from showing.

Good Karma

We will all land on better grounds… as long as we do our best!

Sponge Bob

Sometimes… people are just too busy ranting, complaining and crying…

Than keeping theirselves busy doing something about what keeps them whining!

Perfect Strangers

People doesn’t just come into our lives just to teach us how to love and remind us that we can still love.

They also come to show us how is it like to live life… and make us feel how to loose them and regret loosing them.

Reflections

Try to find happiness in the midst of your mistakes and your past…

You wont be what you are now without it.

Realization

Sometimes… you’ve gotta be slapped in the face to wake up to your senses!

Surprise

They say… what you wouldn’t know… wouldn’t hurt you.

Thing is… what you could’ve known… could make you kill someone!

Past Mistakes

Once you’re still stuck with the mistakes of your past… you’ll never move on.

As you will still be sorry for what you have done with yourself.

Ang Nakalipas…

Minsan ayaw talaga nating aminin ang mga pagkakamali natin nung nakaraan. Pero hindi makakaila na darating din tayo sa punto na maiisip din natin ang pagkakamali na yun. Minsan hindi natin matatanggap. Minsan ayaw nating aminin. Minsan ayaw balikan. Pero sa huli, ito rin ay ating mapagtatawanan…

Free

They say that… freedom isn’t free at all as everything has a price.

Because taking something for free costed you to believe that it was.

And making something for free will cost you the fortune on how to make someone believe that it is!

Lookin’ Back

Sometimes we keep on walkin’ and walkin’ away… tryin’ to move on. But we keep on lookin’ back… lookin’ back with this messed up face and heavy feelin’. While all the time that we’re lookin’ back… we usually tend to forget one thing… we are walkin’ on a road to where we are brought from yesterday…

Choice of Words

There are times that even when the right words ain’t used… it’ll still hit the spot.

As long as the timing is right, the thought that you want to imply wont simply go wrong.

The Corporate World

In the corporate world, the room for complaints is superficially large. But when you go inside it, there’s not enough space.

As it is just filled up with choices… and a lot of hidden reasons to be contented and happy.

Premature Deathwish

Be careful with what you wish for…

It might come true and you might be caught off guard and be in deep shit!

Noob

Sometimes… the person with little knowledge of something is more dangerous than someone who knows more.

As curiosity, experimentation and recklessness would be his key to wreak havoc.

Whirlpool of Emotions

Love is a whirlpool of emotions…

You go round and round and sucks you in eventually… if you failed to control yourself.

On-Call Jobs

“On-call” jobs are probably your LAST OPTION… when you want to live your life without anyone to bug you during your rest day or during the night with your personal activities or agenda. So if you don’t want anyone to ruin your plans… just don’t accept the responsibility!

Arguement on the Corporate Ladder

Everyone has the right to argue. Thing is… if you’re under someone, it’s like you’re just too far from being heard. And if you’re on top… it’s easy for your voice to just echo across!

Ignorance

Ignorance is bliss… but ONLY to a certain extent!

Wrong Tree

Sometimes… we’re just too busy with the wrong person. Not knowing, that there is something more important to do.

Or sometimes… there is someone more worth… holding on to!

Shut Up!

When you refrain to shut up to say something, make sure that you’d stand up for it. But if you don’t have the balls to defend your word or accept your mistake… then just cut the crap and shut it still. Keeping it cool and playing it safe can do wonders… only if you will!

Solitaire

Play it safe.
Play it cool.
Go ahead and drool!
Love and sex is a game…
Only played by a fool!

Big Deal

Kung ang mga maliliit na bagay, pinapalaki mo…

Asahan mo… liliit ka lang lalo!

Priorities

You cannot celebrate for tomorrow without doing things that you need to do NOW.

Jigsaw

Life is a puzzle. Sooner or later, some parts of it will soon fall into place…

Even if the puzzle will never be completed.

Prayer

Let both your hands be engaged with each other.

So you can be engaged with the Almighty Father.

Morsel of Life

Sometimes… it’s not safe giving our all. We are most likely to end up with nothing left for us. Though… risking, hoping and trusting our faith are just some of the primary essences in loving.

Confidence

Confidence brings forth better chances…

But not guarantees or assurance of something!

Wisdom

Wisdom is not measured by age…

You can look and get older as you age. But wisdom doesn’t go along with it!

Disgrasya

Kahit na anong ingat at iwas mo sa disgrasya…

Kung gago at walang disiplina ang kasabay mo sa kalsada… mamamatay ka nalang talaga!

Target

If you’re frustrated to reach a certain goal… just think that you still have something to ought for.

Because if not, you’ll probably look for a different high… which might be something farther beyond your reach.

Klámata

Crying is not a sign of being weak. It’s a sign of strength…

As a person is fighting his or her emotions when in tears.

Sympathy

Sometimes… being too sympathetic would make the person feel weaker.

Which can be compared when someone pats your shoulder… more weight is added compared to just softly hitting his shoulder with your knuckle.

Aral

Para matuto sa buhay, kailangan talagang masaktan.

Pero kung napapadalas, ibig lang sabihin noon ay marami ka pa kasi kailangang matutunan.

Rimel

Hindi porke seryoso at hindi nakangiti ang tao, eh malungkot na. At hindi rin porke tumatawa o nakangiti ang tao, eh masaya siya.

Sa likod ng mga yan… ang mga mukha natin ay pawang mga maskara lamang.

Element of Heart

Acceptance is the element of love that makes a person blind of the naked truth!

Lessons and Realizations

That which that you have learned from a mistake is a lesson.

That which that you have learned from the rest is a realization…

Mask

Not all happy people are truly and entirely happy at all…

They just make the most out of things that could make them happy.

Pasko

Sana araw-araw ang Pasko… at sana ang Pasko, nilalagay ng mga tao sa puso. At hindi sa utak!

Help

You should not always expect people to be there at your side when you need them…

Psychic Phenomena

Could it be true… that the person that you usually think of… dreams of you?

Ório

The only way for us to literally push ourselves…

Is by pushing ourselves to our limit!

Enigma

Mysteries are complex puzzles…

Which cannot be solved unless you have the correct facts to guide you.

Synkroúseis

Lean not onto your own understanding. Especially if you get drowned by conflicting ideas and contradicting thoughts while you’re submerged under miscommunication and strangled with misunderstanding. Unless you want to leave things as it is even though the answers are just ready to be served… on the platter of your choice!

Capacidad

They say that… not knowing what to do is the worst kind of suffering.

But not knowing how to do it is another thing… and knowing that you are not capable of doing it… is probably the worst.

Please?

Try to appreciate the efforts of the person who did you a favor.

Because you may never know what they have gone through just to help you.

Plano

Hindi nasosolusyunan ang mga bagay-bagay kung magdamag mo lang ito iisipin.

Isipin nang mabuti ang mga bagay-bagay at gawan ng paraan upang ito’y iyong masimulan.

View Finder

We can all have the same vantage point for an ideal scene.

What makes the shot incomparable… is how we look at it and how we take it.

Inkling

I’ll leave tomorrow and cross the sea.

Beside you is where i wanna be…

Kama

Tuwing naiisip kita,
ako’y natutulala.
Tuwing nakikita kita,
wala na akong ibang inisip kundi ang makasama ka.
Hayaan ko nalang ang sarili kong mahulog…
Gusto talaga kitang makasama matulog!

Tuwing napapadikit ako sayo,
ako’y nanlulumo.
Tuwing ikaw ay aking nakakatabi,
wala na akong alam na masabi.
Tuwing napapasandal ako sayo… parang ayaw ko nang bumitaw.
Sana… kasama nalang kita buong gabi at araw!

Senti

Sometimes… it’s nice to dwell on mud. Then take a bath of relief afterwards.

As a person can feel the comfort of relief better that way.

Auto-Focus

Minsan sa buhay… kung ano pa ang malinaw, doon ka pa nahaharangan o hinaharangan.

At kung ano pa ang malabo, yun pa ang maganda sana.

Sarcophagus

If you dare to shine your light on me…

Prepare yourself… as it is just shadows that you can see!

Jack

The attempt of mastering all…

Is actually the attempt of mastering none at all.

Alinlangan

Some love is shared with pretension.

True love is shared with unconditional attention.

Palusot at Pagrarason

Kahit paano mo pa pagbaliktarin…

Ang kahulugan ng palusot at pagrarason ay magkaiba parin!

Sakit

Malalaman mong hindi pa sapat ang iyong nararamdaman…

Kung hindi mo siya kayang pagtyagaan.

New Year

Count the blessings. Not the years.
Count the lessons. Not the tears.
Count the moments that made you smile.

- The moments that made things worthwhile.

Count the times that you were able to stand alone.

- The times that gave you skills to hone.

Leave the moments that made you frown.
And take heed the times how you fell down.

Last Tweet

it seems that its no use fighting for you
since you don’t feel the same way too
you don’t believe that what i feel is true
¿Cómo me haces falta tú?

you jumped into conclusion
without any question
do you know really?
what is inside of me?

no… you’ve got no idea girl
no matter what i do, these corns wont turn to pearl
go ahead and think what you want
I’ll move on
you’ve got it all wrong
I’ll just be walking along
and sing a happy song

no I’m not devastated
and no I’m not that frustrated
it may not sound like it
but if you think so, then I’ve got your mind manipulated

don’t take words as it is
because it may look larger as it creates a whiz
have i got you thinking?
wanna ask me something?
maybe before i still wanna clarify everything
but no use. you just keep on blocking

I’ll leave that in the dark area of my head
and sleep it off on my bed
hopefully when i wake up, I’ll be walking ahead
and take my daily bread

it’s not gonna leave a set of what if
and no I’m not gonna jump off the cliff
don’t worry I’m not doomed
this didn’t hurt much as i have assumed

yeah i may say that i totally fell
its one of the things that i really didn’t tell
but i wasn’t all out yet
don’t believe me? wanna bet?

i was probably on a high
but i did things without a sigh
doing things naturally
it just came out easy

no you’re not the same with them
i did treat you like a gem
you did know that for me, you’re special
and every bit of you is exceptional

no I’m not bitter
in fact, i think this is better
maybe i was just on a state of bliss
and everything that you let me felt was just like an eternal kiss
but I’ll admit, those are the things that I’ll surely miss!

I’ll just be here to listen
no matter what season
I’ll always be the accident prone stranger
that always get tangled in the midst of danger

you’re not my possession
but i can always be your protection
I’ll always be here without question
you can rant if you’re sunk in depression
be yourself, by sharing your impression

but I’ll try to keep my focus in front of me
being down with the sickness is something that i don’t wanna see
time will tell if I’ll see you again
the way i saw you that made me feel like I’m in heaven!

somewhere along probably we’ll meet
but for now, this is gonna be my last tweet…
“I’ll never forget how you made my heart skip and miss a beat!”

Red Rush

Graham Coxon said: “Love travels at illegal speeds.” – Yes, probably it does… and usually… you are left out to crash and burn! We are left out with nothing. Nothing to bring us back safely to where we started. And sometimes, we walk back to the starting point, crippled. And usually with a heavy backpack full of memories… memories that we do not know where to put it!

Hundirse

i lost a heartbeat and I’m still living
i dunno… but it seems that i have stopped believing
things seemed to got worse
and in pain i don’t wanna immerse

Channels

Your open heart is not enough to feel and see what the Lord is trying to let you know.

Keep your mind and soul open as well.

Vathmós

The degree that cannot be earned in any school or any high level university…

Is the degree of RESPECT towards others and yourself and the high degree of TRUST that you earn from it.

Levi’s

If things no longer fit. It means it’s no longer meant for you. Leave it alone for quite sometime and wait ’till it fits in again. But if it wont… then its time to completely let it go.

Apórri̱to kai Mystí̱rio

Not everything that can be read…

Should be read!

Reasons and Emotions

Emotions are not that rational enough to give out a reason.

Capaces

There comes a time in a person’s life where someone will remind you that you still have emotions; you’re still alive with a heart beating and a heart capable of loving again; and a heart, again, capable of loving.

Elección y Responsabilidades

Minsan… aabot ka talaga sa punto na kailangan mong mamili.
Hindi mo man kagustuhan,
hindi mo ito matatakasan.
Kung puwede lang kasi sana hatiin ang katawan;
ang isipan;
ang kaluluwa at nararamdaman.
Para ang lahat ay iyong matugunan…

Chubbie

My world spun like crazy…

Ever since you smiled at me!

Perfect Fit

There is only one person that has a hand that can only perfectly fit in yours…

World of Shadows and Ghosts

We’re currently living in a world which is in a state of reality where fallacy reigns supreme!

Inevitable Shit

Shit just happens every now and then. It just so happens that it was along our way and we stepped on it.

We just need to continue walking ’till the crap falls off…

Shit ‘n Pain

Shit wont stink that long.

It fades as pain does!

Ano daw?

Huwag kang magalit sa kausap mo kung alam mo namang hindi mo naipaliwanag ng maayos ang isang bagay.

Job

You really need to know what you like to do.

Otherwise… like what you are already doing.

Doble Kara Fo̱tografía

sa litrato ko nalang siya mamahalin

ohhh pwede din namang totohanin
kung pagbibigyan lang
ang pusong nagdadamdam

kaso baka ako’y masaktan lang

kaya simulan na lang sa pagkakaibigan

ang tanong ay kung kailan

bakit hindi ngayon o kaya mamaya na lang

kailangan ko rin ng oras malamang

kaya mabuti nang maaga pa lang ito’y simulan

gusto ko na siyang makita sa personal

at maipakita ang iyong pagmamahal
sa note or message mo muna idaan
upang kayo ay maging magkaibigan

na nagsimula lamang lahat sa larawan

at mauuwi sa katotohanan

kung ako ba ay mapagbibigyan
‘di ko talaga ito matatanggihan

at siguradong ito’y magdudulot ng kaligayahan
kaya sana naman ay magkatuluyan

at lumipas ang panahon ng hindi ko mararamdaman
siya na at wala nang iba
wala nang ibang hahanapin pa

at ito’y pagibig na talaga
kung magkakatotoo lang sana
ang ating mga binitawang salita

ngunit ngayo’y para lang tayong mga tanga
pero hindi naman masama ang magmahal kaagad ng isang tao diba?
lalo na kung ikaw ay nagsimula sa paghahanga

sa pagmamahal.. walang masama
kahit ano pa.. basta magmahal ka..

kahit na hindi ako sigurado… susubukan ko talaga

tama.. subukan mo at wala namang mawawala

pagasa.. sana mayroon pa akong makuha
sa tulad ko.. mapamahal kaya siya sa akin?
kung langit at lupa ang naghihiwalay sa amin..

hindi natin malalaman ang katapusan kung ito’y hindi sisimulan..
kaya ang mabuti pa.. habang maaga ito ay subukan

sana ako ay handa ulit masaktan
ibang klaseng pagmamahal ito
hindi tulad ng mga nakaraan ko

basta iyong tandaan..
handa ka nang magmahal.. kung handa ka ng masaktan

totoo ba kaya ang aking nararamdaman?
o ako lang ay natutuwa sa kanyang kagandahan?

pagmamahal man ito o paghanga lang…
ang makilala siya ay magdudulot ng kasiyahan
kung kaya’t ‘di ka man sigurado sa nararamdaman mo..
ituloy pa rin ang naisip na plano

kaso natatakot ako
baka matorpe lang ako sa pagharap sa kanya
wala nang ibang masabi at ako nalang ay matulala

saka mo na isipin yan..
magsimula ka muna sa step one..

alam mo ba kung gaano na ako nalilito? ewan!
sa kaba.. ako ay napapangunahan!

hindi ka kailangan malito.. hindi kailangang kabahan..
sabi naman sayo i-message mo muna o i-note na lang
huwag isipin ang hinaharap.. wag mangamba..
simulan ng dahan dahan .. magsimula sa umpisa

at sana’y hindi ako mabalisa

kaya nga… i note mo na…

salamat sa paghihikayat, Mhaezthro!

basta para sa inyo, hangga’t kaya… gagawin ko!

Speck

Things may appear insignificant to others…

But this may mean a lot to someone.

Hint

Sometimes… people are too naive or blind with hints…

That the only way for them to know… is for you to tell and show.

Blindfold

…i will take this for you.
i know you wouldn’t want me to.
because you’re important to me…
couldn’t you feel and see?

Coincidence

Sometimes… it’s better not to think too much of what we do not want to happen.

Because sometimes… circumstances can weave… what our mind can conceive.

Pills of Choice

There are instances in your life where you are given nothing. You feel nothing and you see nothing. And there are instances as well… that you are given too much. You feel too much and you see too much. Then… there’s this time when you are left to choose.

Unfair

Life is typically unfair.

If you can’t accept it, you’ve gotta live with it!

Distraction

Things happen for a reason.

But not all things that happen needs attention.

Maskara

Para sa mga taong puro ngiti’t hagalpak…

Mayroon din kaming mga pusong naliligwak!

Balance

A person can withstand what a person can understand.

Level Up

People learn through their past.

And grow through their experiences.

Dreamer

The benign imagery of a fool manifests on an innocent romantic soul longing for fairy tales.

Doubts

If you dare question someone’s capability.

You need to give other people the pleasure to question your integrity!

[PRiSMz] Rowvatreim

beneath the four masters lurks the calm & sweet side of me.
which mostly anyone couldn’t ever see.
does anyone want to be cherished?
as every sweet thing on a person can be relished.
does someone wants to be in a frame?…
…where she could live a life with Rowvatreim?

[PRiSMz] Takijiro

in battle, i may loose the fight.
but in the end, i will still set things right!
as its defensive strength rises like Kilimanjaro.
does anyone have doubts about the guardian, Takijiro?

[PRiSMz] Wretamori

I’m twizted!
and neutrally blinded!
anyone ready?
to tame Wretamori?

[PRiSMz] Ryu Kusari

the two dragons finally took place!
merging with the chain dancing in grace!
can anyone see?
how dangerous is Ryu Kusari?

[PRiSMz] Warmonger

the fiery balance of the twin dragons spreads dust!
as they become ready to be eaten by a mortals blood lust…
are you brave enough to face the danger?
if so, wait for the ultimate burst of hunger.
then I’ll ask you, “are you sure you can handle Warmonger?”

New York

living each day as if it’s my last
for tomorrow might run too fast
and my future may no longer come to cast

Stain

Things come and go. As well as life. We just need to learn how to let go of it. It’s not ours in the first place – as everything is just a borrowed moment that needs to be cherished before it ends.

Complicated

It was just the both of you that i wanted…
it’s all that i ever needed.
but why do things need to be this complicated?!

Reaction

Think before you react. Getting mad is a choice.

But getting even is always an option!

Faded Glory

from now on I’ll be a moving monkey
thinking of a better strategy
dance and swing happy
along with the faded glory

Pusoy

I’ll wait ’til i can
don’t know how long will it span
until the white man fades
I’ll gamble with all my spades

Waiting Shed

magyoyosi nalang at magaantay sa labas.
magaantay ng basbas.
kung maubos na ang upos,
tatalikod na ako’t hindi na ulit magpapadalos-dalos…

Jipni Drayber

Sabihin na natin na ang idadahilan mo ay trabaho lang… at hindi mo sinasadya.
Pero masyado kang nagpabaya.
Tapos nagkataon, buhay ang nakataya.

Yun parin ba ang iyong idadahilan?
…sa taong iyong sinagasaan?

Sorry nalang ba sabay kamot ka nalang sa ulo?
sa taong… nadisgrasya mo?

Skills

Speed kills.

But it’s nothing if you don’t have enough skills!

Patience

We sometimes don’t get what we want or what we need on our desired time.

But it will definitely get to us on the time we need it the most.

Instinct

If you sensed something wrong… believe your instincts!

Because something is… probably wrong!

Advocate

An idle mind is the devil’s playground…

While an idle hand is the devil’s instrument.

Utilization Over Power

Possessing too much power is not that essential…

If circumstance will not let you use it to its full potential.

Whine

Instead of blaming and complaining.

Be grateful and do something!

Tangled

Sadness and problems are just tied to you.

Unless you look for a way to untie the knot thats keeping you attached to it.

Selfish Retards

Kill the people who wanna take away your happiness!

Because they deserve some spanking in hell!

More Than Words

Sometimes… thoughts count more than what you can hold.

As actions… count more than what you can say!

Wasted Time

You’ll know that time is wasted…

Only when you have not learned anything during that period.

Rat

There’s a thin line between being intelligent and being clever.

Craziest Thing

Falling in love could be the craziest thing a person could do over and over again…

Fault

The ability to accept your mistake is great enough to cover up for it.

Conflict

Usually… if you think that you’re not the one who has the problem…

Then it’s gotta be the other party who has it.

Of Persons and Questions

It’s hard to answer a question about a person…

If that person is the only one on your mind.

Complexities in Life

Life’s complexities are the ones that need to be forgotten…

To give way for life’s simple pleasures.

Christmas Spirit

Lucky are the people who can feel and share the Christmas spirit during Christmas.

But blessed are the people who feel and share the same spirit all year long…

Cause and Effect

A small change can make a big difference.

Key

Oftentimes…

Keeping things simple can solve a lot of things.

Faint Saint

Santa is one of the first lies that people let children believe in.

One of the false hopes that adults bestow to young minds!

Mercy

Victims are there… to be healed.

And not to be severed by inflicting more pain.

Peace of Mind

True happiness can’t be achieved if you are destroying the lives of other people.

The 5th Commandment

5. Honor your father and mother.

- As you might not know how much they honor you… and what they have been through.

Decision Making

The ability to decide on your own without someone else’s consent and consultation…

Is a sign that you have outgrown some of the basics and immaturities of your past.

Cassette

How nice it is if life would just have an eject, play, fast forward, rewind and most especially…

A pause button…!

Hanapbuhay

Mahirap talaga kumita ng pera…

Pero kadalasan… mas mahirap ang makuntento sa kung ano ang mayroon ka na.

Moment

What matters most in a moment is not the thought that you are there savoring every second.

But by enjoying the fact that the moment itself is happening right that very minute!

Life’s Luxury

If we don’t have time as our luxury to enjoy… happiness is one luxury that we can have.

All it takes is for us to decide… and enjoy the ride.

Laughter

Laughter is the best medicine…

But hearing the distinctive laugh of the person that you miss is just exhilarating and priceless!

Worthwhile Morning

It sucks to wake up early in the morning.

But it’s nice to wake up for something and for someone that’s making life worth living…

Why?

Who? What? When? Where? Why? How? — Of all the basic general questions…

Why does the question “why”… the most difficult question to answer?

Lotto

Hindi mo kailangang tumama sa lotto…

Para lang sumaya.

Lesson 101

Problems/Issues/Conflicts/Complications arise not because life wants us to get a daily dose of headache.

They are there because life wants us to learn from it; grow and be mature enough for another tomorrow.

Samahan

Hindi nasusukat ang pagkakaibigan sa tagal ng pinagsamahan.

Kung hindi sa lalim ng pagkakaintindihan at kung hanggang saan ka nariyan para saluhin ang kasama mong nangangailangan!

Consideration

Be considerate with people who needs more than you do… especially if it was partly your fault.

They shouldn’t always be fully accountable with the consequences that the situation offers.

Uncertainty

We aren’t really sure who is ‘the one’…

As relationships can last for years and end up like there wasn’t anything – like nothing existed in the first place!

Palusot

Malalaman mong nagdadahilan lang sa iyo ang isang tao…

Pagka isa lang ang sinabi mo… tapos marami na siyang ibinato sayo.

Dreams

Don’t trust in dreams too much as it is just a dream.

Dreams usually show us things the way we wanted things to be… however, sometimes… it shows us what our subconscious mind is aware of.

Master

A master went through a series of pain even before he was called one.

U-Turn

Don’t know why circumstances is forcing me to expect
though its her decision that I respect
this feeling I need to reject
maybe I just need to press on eject

I’ve gotta get rid of things that would lead me to wait for something
I’ve gotta stop everything so I wont end up expecting
hopefully soon, I’ll wake up happy
and wont end up with a feeling that’s crappy

and I thought that my life has already begun
and it just seems that it’s now nearing to be over and done
am i just giving up the fight that I’ve started?
or I’m just about to end the happiness that I have imparted?

I think it’s just the same…
are my reasons just too lame?
I’m avoiding myself from further pain
I still need to get a grasp of my sane

I want to continue but I can feel the hurt that’s coming
thinking twice since as early as now, the instances are just numbing
I want to protect myself from getting hurt because I’m not that ready
and as seeing it from my perspective, things are not steady

I want to continue to share the happiness and positive energy
but things recently almost ended up in jeopardy
I’m reckless
maybe I’m really hopeless

what am I to do?
I don’t want to indulge myself into the blue
but I don’t want to waste this feeling that already grew
I’m basically perplexed on how to get through

tried to lay low
kept away from things that would make me expect
keeping myself from getting things checked
I do not know if this is correct
I do not know what would be the effect

is this wrong? if my main objective is to have myself protected?
because I cannot guarantee myself to be unaffected
trying to have these arrows deflected
but mostly, I want to result on having myself ejected

I’m afraid to get hurt
I’m trying to keep myself alert
do I need to continue to exert?
or do I need to start looking for something?
so as to prevent me from expecting.

I’m starting to forget that I must be enjoying
but I’m starting to hate the instances because this is what’s happening
maybe this is the right time to take a U-turn
before I have myself crash and burn.

I am still undecided
the main issue has not subsided
at some point I still expect
keeping my guard up and strong to avoid me from getting wrecked.

Moving On

The first step of moving on doesn’t begin with your first step forward.

But by controlling yourself from looking back and keeping your focus straight up in front of you.

Daily Bread

If we can only open our eyes and stop complaining about things… we’ll eventually realize that there are just too many things to be thankful of. We are always blessed and continuously being showered with countless reasons to live.

Simple Things

If we can learn to appreciate the simple things in life, we’ll be surprised on how much we’re blessed.

Bittersweet Luck

If things wouldn’t go your way. Think of it as a blessing in disguise.

As it will or it may happen for a reason.

Sit back. Relax.

And keep yourself excited of the surprise that awaits you.

Bisita

May mga taong dumadaan sa buhay natin hindi para bigyan tayo ng kasiguraduhan…

Kundi karunungan.

Use

Budgeting is the best practical application for anticipation.

Bad Luck

Things could just end up in dismay… just call it a day.

It’s the countless blessings that is important anyway.

Answers

Sometimes, the answers to our questions unfolds by itself.

It comes. It shows.

Platter

Sometimes… when you get used to being full every after meal…

You cant avoid yourself asking the same or more on your next.

Abyss

i can feel your pain
i can see your scar
let me hide you under the rain
help you fight this war

i cant stand your eyes
and the smile full of lies
the stare that you give
its something that i cant forgive
i just cant believe
how he left you that eve

a gem like you was left alone
just like any other stone
why cant he see
how special you can be

damn i hate to see you like this
i just cant imagine myself leaving you in the abyss
what did you do to deserve such treatment
and end up with this kind of torment

blades of steel cutting me through
looking at those eyes tainted with blue
you cant even smile in front of the lens
as you have already lost a part of your sense

you seem to be numb of the things that happened
that look is something that you cant pretend
it is the last photo in the album
and every part of it was covered in gloom

i just cant stand it
the expression just doesn’t fit
i literally feel the pain
something that you shouldn’t contain

i can feel the cut
and i want to have my eyes wide shut
i cant stand looking at you like this
i really cant believe that he left you in the abyss…

Assholes

People will be people. Life goes on.

The hard thing is just how you can treat them as a person while accepting the fact that they don’t act like a human being.

Exit

One of the hardest things to learn in life…

Is to leave without the need to wait… stop and look back.

Uniqueness

We are at our best in our own special ways.

So don’t feel bad when you can’t do something right.

Karamay

Sa buhay… hindi lahat ng mga nakikilala mo, tinatago. May mga kailangan talagang mawala. Dahil tapos na ang kanilang misyon sa buhay mo.

May iba naman kailangan makasama mo pa… dahil kailangan niyo pa ang isa’t-isa…

Crime and Happiness

Sometimes, being happy seems to be like a crime to some people.

Just because, they do not know what is it all about.

Hiatus

One way for you to know what’s missing…

Is for you to keep on going.

Lack of Appreciation

Sometimes the smallest of things are the ones that is most noticeable.

Like not appreciating the simplest favor done for you might just be as noticeable as a small drop of coffee on your white tux.

At Least

If we often complain in life, let’s just add ‘at least’ followed by something that we can be thankful of. That way, we will learn to appreciate things… little by little.

Probable Visitors

People come and people go.

But it is just our decision on who to keep and who to let go.

Larawan

Alam kong mahal mo siya
Alam kong ikakasal ka na
Ako ang tao na ayaw manggulo
kaya kahit mukha na akong gago
mamahalin nalang kita sa litrato.

Kung hindi lang sana masama humiling na ako na sana ang iyong mahalin…
Yun talaga ang aking gagawin!
Pero mali… hindi dapat.
Kaya sana ok lang din ang magtapat.
Kaso ito’y delikado.
Baka isa sa atin ang mahulog ng mas malalim
at kung magkaproblema kayo… baka hindi ko lang maatim

Ang magmahal ay masarap
pero kung sa litrato… ito’y mahirap
hindi bale nang masira ang aking ulo
sa kakamahal sayo sa litrato
dahil ito ang aking tadhana
kaya wala na akong magagawa

kay tamis mo talagang pagmasdan
kung puwede lang sana kitang masamahan
kahit man lang… sa larawan!

Love and Sharing

Love is not love, until it is shared.

Umaga

Sarap magising kung ika’y nasa aking panaginip.
Ano pa kaya kung ikaw ang una kong masisilip?
Sa pagdampi ng liwanag sa aking mga mata…
Sana habang buhay… kasama kita!

Tolerance

Love without limit and don’t set a span.

Get hurt until you can.

But stop if it’s starting to destroy your plan.

Happiness and Investment

Invest more on happiness. Not on love.

As happiness is love’s prerequisite and foundation.

Baliw

praning o baliw na ata kung tatawagin.
araw gabi walang ginawa kundi ang kasiyahan niya ang isipin.
lahat ng bagay, gagawin.
kahit ano susuungin.
basta siya lang ay pasiyahin.
praning at baliw na nga ata ako.
may reklamo?

Inlababo

sabi ng iba, ako raw ay inlababo
sabi ko naman, hindi naman masyado
sabi nila, eh anong tawag dyan sa ginagawa mo?
sabi ko, wala… eh kaligayahan ko ang pasiyahin ang taong ito…

Genie

I’ll be your genie. Not fat. Not blue.
I’ll try to make your wishes come true.
Making you happy is what I’ll do.
For a Princess, I’ll try to do anything just for you…

000100010011

Just had the craziest New Year’s Eve last night
Expecting things to be all right
Left the office minutes past 10
asking myself if I need to speed up again?

Things are well planned out
studied the map like a scout
hurriedly traveled through the highway
I’m minutes late and I can’t afford any delay

Squeezed the throttle and leaned forward
Can’t go any faster… 115 was all it offered
minutes ticking
can’t stop thinking
will I make it on time?
Wishing my bike could do more since it’s still on its prime

Started to see some aerial fireworks display
damn… I still haven’t reached halfway!
took wide curves at a hundred
praying that I wont end up kissing the streets while I go ahead
streets has started to be covered with smoke
speeding up is no joke

As i turned right
i started to feel this fright
will I easily find the place?
is there enough time to waste, just in case?

I eventually asked people questions
hoping that they would give me the right directions
and point me to the exact location
Because I’m starting to feel the frustration

Glancing at the map
wishing that the place will just magically unwrap.
The house is just located behind a lottery outlet
good thing it was one of the landmarks that I didn’t forget.
Found a store and asked where could I find it
pointed at a sign board that’s lit.

I hurriedly approached the place
and it feels like I’m in a race!
Parked my bike and called
“I’m already here” in a tone that’s enthralled
“okay I’ll go out and fetch you there”
waited for minutes still wondering where.

Walked around and asked a resident
got a different answer and took it with discontent.
Wanted to call back and say that I’ll just return tomorrow
I was about to give up because I no longer have time to borrow.

Got additional landmarks through text
now I’m totally perplexed!
Gave myself another shot
good thing someone knowledgeable enough was able to untie the knot

Coursed through the unknown…
this is something that I can’t postpone!
Saw another outlet
then saw her Dad and I felt the cold sweat!
It’s a good thing that I’m already here
there’s just too many things to fear
asking some people that are drunk
while other people strangely look at you like you’re a punk.
Hoping that you would be okay
is something that you would definitely pray.

came in to their humble home
checked on what’s going wrong
was asked to eat once I’m done
said all right since I thought that it’ll just be a quick one.

the machine was then turned on
then the prompt came upon.
got past the error, I thought it was done.
tried to restart and now it wont run!
opened the case and checked the cable
pulled them out. thought it was unstable.

turned it on again and got the check disk screen
after a few minutes it showed its normal scene
the phone rang and it was her
then her Dad said that I was really there
the phone was handed to me..
and Her reaction was like.. “O.M.G.!!!”
i didn’t know what to say
letting her know wasn’t part of my plan anyway
greeting her “Happy New Year!” was all that I properly uttered
all the other words, i just stuttered

to her Mom, I passed the handset
got back to work and confirmed that it was all set
told her Dad that I have to leave
because it’s minutes before New Year’s Eve
I apologized because I really need to pass with the offered food
I know it was a bit rude
but I started to hear the silence that has been subdued
and I really can’t afford to stay longer because I might get screwed

Bid goodbye to her Mom and left the house
it was a pleasant night and there’s no way that I’d grouse.
geared myself up to leave and go home
waved goodbye to her Dad while the fountains around sparkle like chrome
from afar I started to hear a loud blast
wonderin’ if I can go out fast

took my chances and rushed through the street
blasts from all over is trying to push me off my seat
people along the sidewalks are throwing 5 stars across my way
unsure if I need to stop or traversing them is okay
at some instances, I traversed
a blast from around a meter away was my worst
felt something that hit my helm
good thing that it didn’t knocked me out of my realm
I can feel the impact of the strong shock wave
but it wasn’t enough to send me to my grave
people shouting
and I am doubting
are they on the right mind throwing things in front of me
or am I just plain crazy?
it seems that I’m the only one traveling in two wheels at that very minute
well, I wont be if time would only permit
if I was just able to immediately find the place
I wont be in this kind of pace
I don’t regret anything
It was actually something that was really exciting
I continued and stopped as I saw a Judas’ belt exploding on the ground
thundered by its sound
I paused and waited
I can’t afford to cross and have my tires deflated
or worse, have my skin grated
as it stopped for a few seconds, I assumed that it’s done
it’s now or never, I crossed for fun
good thing nothing went wrong
else, I’ll be bidding ‘so long!’
looking for my way out
while all of these people around me shout
people enjoying
while I’m out there risking
people dancing
while I’m zigzagging
fireworks exploding
while I’m crossing
I then found my way out
Thank God I traversed the easiest route
as i sped up along the wide street towards the highway
I saw several groups of kids that seems ready to play.
and damn I didn’t know that they’ll be using baby rockets!
my eyes almost popped out from its sockets
as they fired it across my path
without second thoughts, I blazed through its wrath
and I thought it was just a few
I was freakin’ surprised to see a queue
damn! I’ve gotta get out of here
before these things make me disappear!

finally got my wheels to the main road
maxed it out to my CDI’s load
how I wish I could do a one fifty five
and reach home alive

I thought Commonwealth wouldn’t be hard
but I was almost caught off-guard
another series of baby rockets across
I’ve got no choice
all I can do is rev up and rejoice
this is one heck of a night indeed
nothing but excitement, smoke and speed

I was shouting, “Thank you, Lord!”
this is the best and craziest New Year’s Eve for the record!
Things were not good in the past…
But I was ending my 2010 with a blast!

As reached halfway
streets started to fade away
vehicles using their hazard signal light
barely seeing through the smoky night

I was still praying that I wont be a person that’s accident prone
as I’m on the highway to the danger zone
but lo and behold… I still am!
damn!
hitting a high rpm
I was supposed to overtake a cab that I wanted to condemn
I thought he was just running slow
I was surprised! He’s gonna turn left! I didn’t know!
squeezed my rear brake
not sure of what is at stake!
I fishtailed
thinking that I’ll get nailed
squeezed my front brakes
I’ve gotta stop this bike no matter what it takes!
tires screeched
brake limits has been reached
I’m close to contact
ohh no.. I’m gonna get whacked!
me and my bike wiggled as I am about to hit the cab’s side
praise HIM, I’m just a meter away as I could have probably died.

I continued as if nothing happened.
no time to loose. I have lesser minutes to spend.
that cab ate away seconds from my sleeve
thinking of what’s the next surprise to achieve

speeding along a dark road
beautiful fireworks display on the sky overflowed
red, green and blue
and yellow too
lit up my night while thinking of you
I wanted to stop and stay
while wishing that you could also see this display.
brightly lit up and decorated sky with red, green and blue
is one of the best eye candies to view
But it’ll be nice and sweeter if I’ll be seeing this with you.

I am being welcomed by 2011 with a beautiful fireworks presentation
it was something that was beyond my expectation
I was going home with a smile on my face
this New Year’s Eve is something that nothing can replace
it is the best ever!
something that I’ll remember forever.

I thought things would end there
Now I see people setting up fireworks everywhere!
streets are now blocked
and now I’m about to get myself knocked
as I saw a baby rocket fired and now rushing towards me!
how the heck am I going to set myself free?!
my speed is ranging from 60 – 80
unsure if I’ll slow down or speed up
wishing that when it goes below me, it wont blow up
arghh.. damn it! I just revved it up!
then it passed below me and a meter away it blew up!
Thank God! He saved me again!
What a year this is?! I love you, 2011!!!

streets were then lit up by fountains
they were like silver and gold mountains
people cheering
this is just exciting!

I’m a few kilometers away from home
as streets started to fade
thick smoke covered my vision
so thick that I can’t recognize my current location.
I don’t know what street I’m on
as everything just seems to be gone

curved streets appeared to be clearer
good thing since I’m having a hard time looking at the side mirror
from there, it was easier
minutes away, I’m getting nearer and nearer

the skies continued to amaze me
but I need to hurry up as I already miss my family
as I reach the gate
I do not know how many minutes I’m late

reached home in one piece
now I am at peace
I hurried upstairs to see my Mom and Niece
hugged them tight and gave them a kiss

it was definitely a happy New Year’s Eve
’til now I can’t believe
I was crazy enough that night
and reached home all right.

And I thanked the person who made it possible
everything just seems to be a miracle
she ended my 2010 with a blast…
overwhelming and unfathomable happiness at last!
she welcomed my 2011 with a beautiful set of fireworks display
and so I pray… that she’ll stay
and be the one… only if and oh how I wish… that… HE may.
Happy New Year’s Day!

Good Morning!

Who wants to wake up early in the morning if you can wake up late? No one, right? It’s just one of the things that ruins your day. Since you are supposed to enjoy your sleep and suddenly wake up just to do something. What’s the point?

I don’t ask myself why. But I get up from bed, bombarded with alarms and sometimes ask the maid to wake me up. What for? To wake up one person. Sounds crazy enough. Well, seems to be. But not that crazy for me.

I should be sleeping at that very moment but I bother to share that time with that person. It doesn’t matter. I don’t know. But it just seems to be a part of my morning already. Like your cup of coffee paired with hot pandesal. Or your spoon paired with your fork during lunch or dinner. It’s something that I feel that would be missing if I wont do it.

The thought of waking that person up, is now in my system. Most people might ask why? And probably ask me why do I need to? Maybe it’s just one of the things that completes my morning. It makes me happy, waking her up. And sometimes, listening to her tiny sweet bedroom voice is just priceless; Hearing her unending complaints that she’s still sleepy and she still wants to go to sleep. I think I’d never go tired hearing that over and over again.

Easy for me to say. But until when? It’s one tough question that I wanna skip every time I think of it. It’s a dark area that I want to just ignore and just forget about it. But to be realistic enough, we will soon reach a point that everything will just come to its finish line. I’m afraid for that time to come. I’m just enjoying what I can do now. And what is possible for me to do at this point. Hoping maybe that there would be more laps to complete before I finish the race so I’ll have more time to enjoy those simple things.

“Life’s a journey. And not a destination.”  – The exact words from Aerosmith’s song, “Amazing”. Yeah, it makes sense. Why was I thinking of completing something if I should just be enjoying everything? Probably, that’s the reason why we should stop ourselves from asking and thinking about negative things that could possibly happen in the future. Why would we worry about tomorrow if today is already a handful for us to live by? Is it for us to prepare ourselves? To prepare ourselves from what could possibly happen? Or prepare ourselves from getting hurt? Maybe yes. We all wanted to secure our future. Who doesn’t? But that’s just gonna be the thrill of living your life one day at a time. You may never know what’s gonna be served on your plate. Are they going to serve you a typical meal on a golden platter? Or are we gonna be served with the best meal served only on a clay pot? How choosy can we be? How much can we complain?

Have you ever tried to get on a car or on any vehicle without knowing where to go? Usually, we get into it and we know or we already have a plan on where are we headed to. Then the thrill is how to get there. Are you going to get lost? Does the person behind the wheel know where to go? This seems to be the usual scenario. Knowing where to go. But not knowing on how to get there. Especially with people who doesn’t have any sense of direction. You go out. Put the pedal on the metal. And follow along with the other vehicles that would seem to point you to your destination. Or sometimes, when things are about to get critical, you ask the people around you. Another scenario is to know where to go but don’t exactly know where to go in that place. And it seems that this is more risky and it’s the scenario that packs more adventure. You go to a place, known or unknown to yourself and not knowing where are you going. You try to explore the place. Venture deep into the unknown until you get to feel these goosebumps, asking yourself if you can still find your way back. Or if you can still get back. Clueless of what lies beyond. And suddenly, you take a u-turn and find your way back again. Seek for another place. Test yourself until where you can go and get yourself lost again. Eventually, you’ll end up going back to where you started. Thinking of the possibilities if only you ventured through and through.

Life should be lived that way. The only difference is that, there is no going back. It’s the only journey that you can take by continuously making a step forward. There are no end points so you could go back to where you want and start over… the way you want it to be. You may have a goal so you can have a direction. But it isn’t a guarantee that you’ll be reaching your destination. As your goal can just be checkpoint to start a new adventure on how to keep it up and how to live with it. That’s probably the time that you can call it a journey, things doesn’t stop when you reach your destination. It’s just a whole new start and another adventure to enjoy which would lead you to another and another. Until you run out of gas. Get out of your car. And see how would you be ending your day. Realize and reflect on how happy you were while traveling and enjoying the ride of your life.

What’s the point of all these? Maybe I should just keep myself from asking questions. And just go with the flow. Let things be.  It would just be a waste of time to think about the answers. Letting a minute slip away instead of spending it with something more worthwhile.

So I guess, I really can’t answer the question – ‘until when?’. Maybe until I ran out of gas? Or until she would still answer my call and deliver those complaints in a way that I find it sweet and cute. Maybe until she’s not tired and bored to tell me that she’s still sleepy and still want to go to sleep.

It’s one of the simple things that I want to hear over and over again. Her tiny sweet bedroom voice is a song by itself. No sense is needed to organize it. No combinations or arrangements needed. No way or style to deliver just to have it completed.

She always wanted to doze off a bit after waking up. Just so to satisfy her craving to sleep a bit more. I never wanted to take that away from her. She needs it. And if that’s one of the things that could make her day, I’ll do it. No matter what way. I worry that if I wont be able to wake her up, she might doze off and might wake up late. I don’t want her to hurry just to reach the office. I don’t want her to miss her breakfast and leave her starving on her way. I don’t want her to get tired to reach work because she’s more than 15 minutes late. I don’t want her to reach the office unprepared and easily get pressured from the tasks that they always bestow to her. She’s the most reliable employee at work and without her around, they’ll just end up being crippled. I wanted to make things a bit easier for her. That’s why I have this time to offer.

I never really appreciate the “good morning” greeting. Until I continuously get this greeting from her. Now I smile whenever I was greeted. But her faint greeting in the morning with her tiny sweet bedroom voice, is just the sweetest. I’d never trade that with an uninterrupted sleep.

Mornings would simply never be the same…

Good morning!

Bago sa Bagong Taon

Minsan hindi sapat ang baguhin mo ang buhay mo. Minsan naman, labis siya sa kailangan mo.

Kung minsan, pananaw lang sa buhay ang kailangang mabago. Para umayon lahat ang mga bagay-bagay sa iyong mga plano.

Moments and Experiences

Not all happy moments can be treasured forever…

But all the lessons that we have learned from our bitter experiences should be kept always.

Visitors

Not all people that we have introduced to our lives can live or stay with us for a long time.

Books and Parents

Books are like our parents… we can learn so much from them.

But it doesn’t mean that we need to depend on them forever.

Since time will come and we’re the ones who’s going to write a book or basically be a parent.

On Guard

We always need to put possibilities into consideration.

…so we can be prepared of what can happen after the minute that is about to pass by.

Ignorance and Stupidity

IGNORANCE can be an excuse.

But STUPIDITY can never be!

Pain and Tolerance

Pain is nothing.

Bearing the pain is something.

But enduring the pain can be everything!

Worries and a Carefree Life

Sometimes… freeing yourself from worries… frees yourself from self isolation. Worries are part of life but it wasnt there to ruin all the fun. It’s something to remind you that you still need to care for someone and for you to feel that someone cares for you. Set yourself free… once in a while. There’s too many things in this world to enjoy but we just have enough time to contemplate with it. So enjoy and live life!

Saltik

Ang tao, binigyan ng kakayahang umintindi. Ang tao, binigyan ng mga kakayahan para gamitin sa tamang pamamaraan. Kaya imbis husgahan ang tao, intindihin na lamang.

Sing You a Love Song

i wanted to sing you a love song
its one of the things that i want to do even if my voice would sound so wrong
i don’t care if people will laugh at me, its okay
the song is not for them anyway

i wanted to sing you a song
its gonna be short
its my last resort
maybe a stanza or two
just to let things through

i wanted to sing you a love song
you can laugh or giggle at me anytime
its gonna be one of your sweetest crime
i tell you, my voice and tone ain’t terrific
believe me its horrific!

i wanted to sing you a song
i rarely sing to my hearts content
even alcohol failed to a certain extent
but I’ll try to sing a song for you
even if all the people around us wont want me to
people can tease me up to my wits end
the heck with them i don’t care

i wanted to sing you a love song
while i wrap my arms around you
hold your hands and never let go
sing you a song
hold on to you forever
be with you wherever
be there whenever
be the one forever. fornever.

Light

Light signifies guidance. But its guidance depends on where the light is pointed to.

Light up your path and you’ll find your way…

Light up yourself and you’ll create darkness by casting your own shadow.

Fix

Not all fixes can get things fixed!

Pointless Arguments

Don’t waste your time arguing and contradicting other people’s ideas. Because we all think differently.

While some are just a bunch of morons and others are just plain stupid!

Happiness and Reality

Happiness seems to be just a phenomena in life which naturally occurs just to give us enough reason to move on and forget about reality!

Getting Up

Waking up doesn’t end after you have already opened up your eyes.

Things only start when you begin to get up and get going.

Moving on and Giving up

Some reasons that would make you give up could also be one of your reasons to keep on fighting harder.

Jokes

Jokes are just a silly excuse to share your hidden thoughts.

Rules and Limits

Rules are made to be broken.

And limits were set to be surpassed.

Laughter and Sincerity

Sometimes… laughing things out will remove the tension and cool things out.

Though most of the time… it just ruins your sincerity on the whole thing.

Friendly Competition

When there’s crab mentality…

There’s no way that you can completely call or consider a competition… friendly.

Venus vs Mars

Women usually accuse men to be indecisive…

So… let men accuse women to be fickle-minded!

Indecisiveness

Indecisiveness is the son of immaturity and indirect relative of incompetence!

Premonition

Sometimes…

What we dream of is just a warning or an indication of what is in store for us in the future.

Reasons

Don’t do something with just one reason for its purpose.

As you may think that your efforts will just go to waste once your only reason is gone.

Tweet

im missing some words…
probably left it for someone
im in excess of words
dont know how to use it

cant make sense speaking to people i know
it’s evident, its you that i still think about
it seems that they know i want to shout
happiness overwhelming
they know that there is something

i dont want to talk to anyone
i feel stupid
blame cupid

cant find the right words to plot
and im just taking every shot
im no longer making sense
dont even know if im in the right tense

all i know is that i want to stay in one place
and anywhere near you is the perfect place
i’ll soon follow
so everything would mellow

by that time, hopefully i’ll have the right words
i’ll find my way out of excessive expression
answer your question with a confession
as i will go a long way just to say a tweet…
“it’s just so hard skipping a heartbeat!”

Whole day of Happiness

I’ll never get tired waking you up in the morning.
I’ll never get tired talking to you ’til you sleep in the evening.
I’ll never get tired seeing you smile.
…all these is just making things worthwhile!

Loosing People

We may loose people we know. Though it may not be permanent.

But this is for us to have some room again to meet and know others that can teach us something that the old people we knew… did not!

Behaviors

In nature, people will not act as they should.

Because if they will… life will be bland and boring.

Learning Fundamentals

The fundamentals as a solid foundation are way way better than advanced lessons with a perplexed introduction.

Crab Mentality

One thing that’s irritating about crab mentality with people is… they continue to criticize, point out and emphasize your mistakes to other people as if it is the biggest deal in their life! While they… continue to do and ignore their own mistakes and act as if they are perfect and unblemished!

Dad

They will make things easy for you to understand. They would kick the ass of anyone who would beat you up. They work countless hours just to provide you with what you need. They’ll simply give their all just for their family. They are our one and only DAD!

Pagmamalinis

Ok lang sana ang magmalinis. Ang hindi lang katanggap-tanggap ay ang magmalinis ka at magturo ka ng ibang tao, punahin at idiin siya sa mga pagkakamali niya habang pinapalabas mo na masyado kang perpekto.

Pasensiya

Hindi porke mahaba ang pasensiya, aabusuhin mo na!

In times of trial

I’m desperately balancing things down.

Tumutulong ako sa financial budget ngayon kina Mama. Walang income ngayon, dahil nandito si Papa at magtatagal siya dito. Umaasa nalang sa maipapahiram ko.

Kung mag OT ako, kulang nalang matumba ako sa hallway sa pagod. Halos mabangga na ako sa kalsada dahil sa pagod. Pumapasok kaya ako minsan barya nalang pera ko. Umaasa sa gasolina ng motor ko. Ni wala nga akong maibabayad sa parak kung mahuli ako eh! Umabot nga sa point na nagpapakarga ako ng tig trenta lang sa gasolinahan para lang makauwi ako. Mga tig lilimang piso at tig pipiso. Daig ko pa jeepney driver magbayad.

Actually, hindi sa pagmamayabang, pero ngayon ko na feel ang urgency ng need ng money. To the point that I am waiting for the payroll to be credited. Now that my parents need help. It’s now my part and role to assist them financially naman.

Ang bigat kaya ng feeling na hindi sila naguusap dahil nagmumuryot na si Papa dahil wala nang maisip na mapaghugutan ng pera. Ang hirap nung feeling na tinatanggihan na ni Mama ung pinapahiram ko dahil ako nalang ang choice. Ang hirap kaya na sa araw ng recognition day ng pamangkin ko eh, badtrip silang dalawa at problemado at hindi nagpapansinan.

Alam ko pera lang yan. Ang importante eh, magkakasama parin kami. Pero its a fact that everything is starting out because of money! Hindi mo rin matatanggal eh.. you can laugh it off. But later, you’ll realize that you need it badly. Badly enough for you to leave it unnoticed.

Bad-ass

Anyone can be a nice friend. No matter how bad he may be. While not all nice people can be overly nice to anyone. Because no matter how nice a person is… in some way or another, he will still be a bad-ass to some of those around him.

Plastikan

Hindi lang sa pangangandidato uso ang plastikan!

True Friend

A true friend, KNOWS you. UNDERSTANDS you. And ACCEPTS you.

True and Close

Those true people who knows you more than others do…

Will not fall or believe that easy on what others may say against you.

Katamaran

Sabi nila… kung gugustuhin, maraming paraan. Kung ayaw, maraming dahilan.

Pero papaano kung sadyang tinatamad ka lang?

Manhid

Minsan kailangan talagang sabihin.

Minsan kailangan talagang iparamdam.

Hindi dahil kailangan nilang marinig.

Kundi para malaman… at maintindihan.

Corruption

They say that in order to clean the current corrupted system, it needs to be destroyed. Start from scratch and start anew. This is to start on a clean slate again so no shit stain will remain. Well, if only there’s a way to make it up with all of those crap without reformatting things back to zero…so we can all keep moving ahead than wasting time building another reputation that will eventually be corrupted again!

Choice of Happiness

Would you choose a happy journey?

Or a happy destination?

Silent Art

A painting, drawing or a still photograph can be titled as a silent universal language. It can denote a thought, express a feeling or even tell a story…without having it translated into many different languages just for someone to understand.

Pretensions

It’s no use pretending someone who you are not.

Since you can always pretend to be just yourself.

Phase

There are events or highlights in our lives that are just a phase that we need to face. No matter how hard it strikes us, we still need to realize that things just come and will eventually go.

The Past

What’s the use of crying about your past?

If you can’t bring that back to your present…

Muddy Life

Life is sometimes like a muddy road. We need to remember which path we chose and how we were able to pass through.

Else, we wont be able to get back and retrieve what we left and we’ll just end up being in someone else’s mess.

Mom

She will do anything for her family especially for her children; She would risk her own life for their safety; She will make sure that their children will be alright even if protecting them would put her life at stake. She is… our Mother.

Burn out

It’s better to drag yourself to work.

Than dragging yourself to exhaustion in looking for a job!

Abusado

Hindi porke pinagbigyan ka… AABUSUHIN MO NA!

Ang mga PROSESO ginagawa para SUNDAN. At hindi para LAKTAWAN!

Pagkakaibigan

Minsan kailangan mong isipin at tingnan kung hanggang saan lang ang samahan at ang limitasyon mo sa mga kaibigan mo. Para kung sakali man na magkaroon ng di pagkakaintindihan o kung dumating man sa kalimutan… Hindi ka manghihinayang!

Rules

Being lenient can lead things to be abused.

Being overly strict can harbor rebellion.

War Cry

As ANGER and HATRED engage…

I engulf my fists with FIRE and RAGE!!!

Light and Darkness

Light can produce darkness…

But in darkness… You can see light!

Priority

We usually think of what is IMPORTANT.

But oftentimes, we forget what is MORE IMPORTANT!

Fate vs Destiny

Fate is what leads you to your destiny as it is basically your destination.

While fate is just your vehicle that brings you to whatnot.

Belief

It’s never too late to start believin’!

Complication

Complication can only be seen…

By those who can understand and those who dare to know!

Intentions and ideas

Sometimes… It’s better to keep quiet than share your thoughts or intentions. Or take the risk of being a laughing stock of people who wouldn’t care much about the light that you have in mind.

Waking up

Sometimes shit happens so you can wake up and take action!

Perspective

Should pain make you stronger?

Or would it just make you vulnerable?

Skill

Your gear does not equate to your skill!

Appreciation

If you say that it’s a sin to appreciate the beauty of His Creation…

Then you have already dictated my eternal damnation!

Pagkakataon?

Kung ano ang madalas mong isipin…

Ay maaari mong sapitin!

Magulang

Masaya at masarap maging isang ama o ina…

Pero mas masarap kung kayo ay handa na.

Pag-aalala

Maituturing na bang pangengealam na ng buhay ang pagaalala sa isang kaibigan?

Malasakit

Bakit kung sino pa yung nagmamalasakit…

Siya pa yung nagmumukhang masama?

Salvation

Let Death knock on your door as long as he wants.

Since God kept the door locked and continues to hold you around His arms…

Imperfection

Sometimes…

A person’s imperfection can help you appreciate someone else’s flaw.

Kotong-Cops

SUPPOSEDLY… police officers should make people feel secure when they’re around. CURRENTLY… police officers make people feel insecure, threatened and taunted when they’re around!

Sugarcoated Happiness

Happiness can just be superficial. Happiness can be a lie. Nevertheless, be contented with that kind of happiness. After all, it made you happy… may it be unreal or just a mask to sugarcoat the bitterness in you.

Ulila sa Diwa ng Pasko

Diba dapat mas mabait nga ang mga tao ngayon dahil Pasko? Bakit ang susungit at ang kukupal parin kausap nung iba?! Parang walang nagbago at parang mas lumala pa ata…!

Yuletide Bitches

It’s Christmas and some people are still acting like BITCHES! Can’t these people take a break from bein’ such a bitch and be nice for a while?!

Pakikisama

Hindi kailangang makibagay para lang makisama…

At hindi rin lahat ng bagay kailangang pagbigyan para lang sa pakikisama.

Bitches

There are a lot of bitches in the world today. Sometimes you don’t know what to do with them. Maybe they just need to get laid…so they can release their animalistic or bitchy aspect in a more useful way!

Spoon-feeding

Hindi kinakailangan isubo ang lahat ng bagay sa bunganga natin…

May utak naman tayo na pwedeng gamitin.

Bastos

Hindi lahat ng tao na may trabaho at may pinagaralan ay may modo!

Idealistic Perspective

What’s the use of being the best?

If you’re not a daredevil to take on the challenges and not crazy enough to take the risks…

Choice

Continue if its worth the pain…

Stop if you’re starting to lose your sane…

Tactlessness

Fewer words to utter…

Leads to lesser mistakes…

Contentment

Always be contented with what you are…

But never stop dreamin’ of reachin’ a star!

Daily Routine

Have you thanked the Lord today?

Fleeting tune

I’m going to miss reading the lines of your poem… while swaying with the rhythm of your melody…

And lis’nin’ to your beautiful song…

Physics

Would it be more damaging if you’ll be using mass more than acceleration to hit a target?

Pamamahala sa buhay ng iba

Huwag mong kontrolin ang buhay ng ibang tao…

Kung ang sarili mong buhay… HINDI MO KAYANG KONTROLIN!

Her choice

I sat beside her… lis’nin’ to her voice. And I said to myself, ‘damn! i really love her!’…

Even if… being friends is what she prefer…

Questions and Regrets

Never question God. And stop regretting anything in your life.

On my death

What if my next sigh… would be my last chance to breath in and out?

Will you come to me to cry and shout?

Guessing Game

Tell me to stay and I will love you forever. Tell me to go away and set you free…

And I will try to forget you even if it hurts me…

Sweetest Song

Her thoughts are organized like a poem; statements arranged like a melody;

And she perfectly delivers it like a song!

Smile Behind a Dream

Your smile is like a breathtaking red afternoon sunset…

Seen behind a green clutter of vegetation!

Adobe End-Of-Life (EOL) Prayer

Jesus, take the wheel… we’re letting go…

Please lead us to a better and safer path… save us from this road we’re on…

Love Games

You picked me up and dropped me off.

Yesterday you saw me… now you wont!

Women and Respect

WOMEN were created to be RESPECTED.

And not to be USED and PLAYED WITH!

Quietus

If this would just be a dream… I would choose to sleep forever.

No matter how impossible it may seem… I just want us to be together!

God’s Time

With His will… in His time…

Everything will be just fine…

Trabaho

Ang sweldo ba dapat nakabase sa dami ng alam?

O sa dami ng ginagawa?

Pag-uugali

Hindi lang ikaw yung tao dito sa mundo.

Kung sa palagay mong importante ka, umayos ka! Huwag kang umasta na para kang diyos!

Comprehension

If A-B-C is simple enough as 1-2-3…

How can we make it more simple to make stupid people understand that it is just so easy?

Silent Escape

Come with me and grab my hand…
Don’t ask anything ‘coz soon you’ll understand.
Let us run together towards the light…
Out of everyone else’s sight!
Even just for a day…
Let us escape from reality and forget everything if you may…

Escape

Come… let’s run! And catch the blaze of the sun…

As ‘life’ has just begun!

The Human Composition

99% of what we are is what GOD has made of us.

1% is what we have made of ourselves. But that 1% can be a really big deal. As this is what we call our… FREE WILL!

Battle Cry

I’m no small fry!

The Scorpion’s Prey

My claws are good enough to catch you off guard.

But don’t wait ’til I use my sting. As I can make you strangle and have you totally helpless in my arms tonight.

Faith

Believe in Him who believes in you…

More than anyone else do…

Better Chemistry

We met somewhere we never expect,
this feeling I would never suspect.
If I tell you now what’s on my mind…
Will you come with me and leave him behind?

Faithfulness

ONLY FAITHFUL MEN has the BALLS!

Because REAL MEN stick to ONE!

Death around your arms

Would you let me lay down and rest forever?

Or would you prefer to hold me around your arms and let me die on your shoulder?

Waiting and Watching

I sat beside her… lis’nin’ to her voice. And I said to myself… “Damn! I love you!”

And that’s when I realized that my feelings was indeed… true!

Sinful Speck

I’m just a sinful dust in the wind…

Compared to His Greatness and Kindness…!

Blessed Routines

In everything that you do…

Try your very best to do it for the glory of GOD!

What is love?

Love is when you can turn a moment into… FOREVER!

Mistakes and Temper

Don’t easily get mad at someone else’s mistake.

Because… you might have also done the same or similar mistake in the past.

Christmas for an Adult Kid

We always hear the phrase… “Love is in the air” But have you heard of Christmas is in the air?

I dunno… Is Christmas really just for kids?

Why is it that… I can hear and smell Christmas. But I just can’t feel it? Or… am I just denying the fact that I can feel Christmas?

Am I just trying to make myself feel comfortable? Am I just forcing myself to not feel or see myself as a loser?

Why do I feel this way? It’s the feeling that, you know Christmas is coming. You can hear the cheers and laughs of the children on the streets; You can hear them playing with their toys; You can feel the coldness of dusk; Longer nights and shorter days; People playing Christmas songs; People thinking of gifts to give this Christmas. All these… can make you feel and think that Christmas is a few weeks away. But why was I able to mention the word “feel” just now? Is it really true that I can feel Christmas? Or do I still want to deny the fact that I can feel it?

Is something missing? Or am I just missing something? Does that make sense?

Is  it maybe because that I’m longing to share my Christmas with someone? Would it be because that I have no one special aside from my family to share Christmas with? Or is this the loneliness and emptiness that someone feels with no one to share the love this Christmas?

Am I just trying to avoid the fact that I’m a loser?

As of this writing, I am now 24. Based on a Manga which is titled “GTO – Shonan 14 Days” (thanks to Mhaezthro for sharing this to me), Onizuka Eikichi who is just 22, was already considered as an adult. Then, what more in my case? Geezzz… I’m in my mid twenties already! Some at my age already have kids. Some even married. But why do I feel excited? Or why do I feel this way? Something that a kid feels when Christmas is near.

Well I may say that I’m not a total loser. I bet that I’m not that difficult to be loved by someone. But… why?

Why is the emptiness swallowing me? Eating me alive. Or is it just me? …that has the problem?

Or is it just the fact that the persons that I want to share my life and Christmas with… just can’t be with me?

Christmas is near. Christmas is all around me. But when will Christmas enter me?

These are the questions that I want to be answered.  Questions that I want to clear with myself. Questions that create a void in me. Answers that I wanna see…

Daldal

Kung wala kang alam na matinong sabihin…

Tumahimik ka nalang… bago pa kita patahimikin!

Tired

Teach me how to stop existing…

Events

Things do happen… in God’s time…

Trust. Live. And let go!

Secret

I wanna tell yah somethin’ that i wouldn’t want yah to know…

Growing Old

We must learn as we grow old…

Mr. Big

Don’t tell me who the fuck or what the fuck you are!

Just show us what you are really made of!

Processes

People with higher positions should know & understand that each department has their own set of standard processes to follow!

Good Example

Be a good example to your subordinates…

And not a scum that everybody hates!

Pain

If the only way to take away this pain is to take away my breath…

Take it now… and give me a meaningful death…!

Letting go

Sometimes we just need to let go…

Because nothing lasts forever!

Sanity

What would we gain?

Behind those pain? Nothing… but SANE!!!

Common Mistake

One of the most common mistakes in life that we commit…

Is to think that… “this is it!”

Thankful

We should be REALLY thankful… despite our hardships in life!

Robbery at the time of crisis

Tangina!!! Ang MAAYOS na kalsada… wala pang isa’t kalahating buwan mula nung matapos… GINIGIBA NANAMAN!!! Ampotah… sa problema na nararanasan ng Pilipinas ngayon… nagawa pang magnakaw nanaman! Imbis tulungan ang mga nasalanta, hayun at nangungurakot pa rin sa kaban ng bayan! Taena… sana makonsiyensya naman kayo!!!

Mother Nature’s Statement

It’s payback time!

Road Repairs

What’s the use of repairing a patch of road… AND REPAIRING IT AGAIN AFTER 2-3 MONTHS?! DAMN FUCKIN’ POLITICIANS!!! Trying to make the most out of it before they let go of their positions by 2010! Go to hell fuckers!! Dahil sa inyo traffic nanaman ngayon! Mga PAKSHYET!!!!!

First Job. First Love.

You get the feeling that something is not right… something is missing.

You just don’t fit in. Lately realizing that it was everything in Adobe all along that made the difference!

Pig

It’s better to look like a pig…

Than act like a pig!

Question

Don’t ask a question…

If you don’t wanna know the answer!

Neighboring Elements

Never be too complacent with the elements around you…

Kayabangan

Huwag kang magmayabang kung sa tingin mong wala ka pang ibabatbat…

Pero kung magaling ka naman… huwag ka pa rin magmayabang. Matuto ka pa rin magpakumbaba.

Obvious Mistakes

Drop it while its hot!

Don’t wait for it to scorch your fingers… or your life!

Kagandahan at Disiplina

Ang ganda mo sana… kaso wala kang disiplina!

Kasing pangit mo na tuloy yung basura na tinapon mo sa kalsada!

Blindness and Disability

Blindness is not a total disability.

It can make you flow with the song and can help you create a melody with your emotions with ease!

Blindness and Sensitivity

Blindness can make your senses sensitive to most of the elements.

But can either leave you helpless or most sensitive to sense a lie.

Taong Nagmamalinis

Kung magsalita ka… parang ang linis linis mo!

Tignan mo muna kaya ang sarili mo… ano sa palagay mo? Ikaw ba ay perpekto?!

Cheating

Put your guard up… let’s learn how to stop!

Girl we ain’t goin’ nowhere… let’s start givin’ life a fair share!

Fate

Why worry and waste your time thinking of what could possibly happen?

If everything has already been written…

Life As a Course

Life is a course that cannot be completed in just 4 or even 10 years!

…we can learn it only by going through it again and again and again!

Mind

Keep it open… keep it free.

There is so much out there… for you to see!

Tawa at ngiti

Sa bawat tawa, may kapalit na luha…

Sa bawat ngiti, may kapalit na pighati…

Life and cards

Life ain’t gonna give you the cards to continue playin’…

You need to earn those cards as you play… to stay in the game!

Time vs Opportunity

Why wait for the right time…

If you already have the right opportunity?

Dream

Any dream is sweet…

As long as you are there for me to meet…!

Physical Injury

Physical injury gained in any way is just temporary.

But not from a man against a woman… in a relationship!

Questions

If your heart has a lot of questions…

Make sure that your heart is open for its answers.

Life

Life…

GOT THE BALLS FOR IT?!

Acceptance

Acceptance…

Can heal what time… CANNOT!

Tasks

Don’t tell me what to do…

Because it has already been done!

Presence

I will always be there for you…

Until… You want me to…

Thoughts

It’s no use sharing your thoughts…

If no one even cares to listen!

Change

Stop reacting with change.

Instead… start adapting to it!

Memory

And you’re just gonna be…

A figment of my memory…

Way out

There’s always an easier way out.

We just need to find out where or what it is and how to go around it.

Coma

I’d rather be in a coma…

If I won’t see you tonight…

insomnia

is there such a thing as an immunity to reality?
if the only way to take away this pain is to take away my breath…
take it now… and give me a meaningful death…!

we always say that we want this person to be our last..
but how can we be so sure if we have always said this in our past?

we always get there…
problem is… we get lost somewhere
hoping and dreaming that things will be alright
but in every statement… it makes us awake all night!
trying to stand and willing to fight
in the end we usually have that person… out of sight!

that’s why if every good and sweet thing is just a dream…
i would choose to sleep forever
no matter how impossible it may seem…
i just want us to be together

stay awake… feel reality
feel the pain! coz its for eternity!
there is no immunity…
just plain purity!

would you stay awake and dream during the day?
while someone makes you realize that everything wont stay?
or just continue dreaming that you’re swaying
swaying with the one that keeps you smiling

sigh.. im dreaming while wide awake
thinking what’s at stake
all of this for love’s sake
so how can someone tell its fake?!

maybe i just need some sleep
as there are so many thoughts to keep
i wanna shout out what’s in me
but geezzz… i just cant set it free!!

can you just stop?!

why does it have to be this way?
you suddenly came in and tell that you wanna stay!
c’mon! can you just stop?!
just out of the blue you came out and pop!

can you please stop calling?!
she may still feel something
but she doesn’t want you anymore
can’t you realize?! you’ve already made her heart sore!

can you just stop sending messages?
can’t you think of the possible damages?
c’mon dude! i know you aint stupid!
dont try to call on cupid!

things ain’t gonna be the same
you should put yourself to shame
she stayed and loved you before
and are you gonna come back to give her more?!

could you just sit on your chair?
keep on dreamin’ alone and breathe some air!

i don’t want you in her life!
she’s no longer your wife!

leave her alone!
stop ringing her phone!

you have done enough!
do you need any other stuff?!

so what if she could still feel the old flame?
how sure are you that things wouldnt be lame?!
you made her sick of what you’ve done
i tell you.. this is no freakin’ fun!

i told you that you have done too much!
she no longer needs your touch!
why dont you just keep your eyes shut
you’re just like a knife giving her another cut!

it doesn’t mean that when you told her that you still love her
things will be back the way you both were
how do you think will the wounds heal?
do you think that things will be easy to deal??

for the last time… can you just stop?!
i’m tired seeing her like this!
can you just give her some peace?!
what can i do for you to let go?!
i’ll do anything just for our love to grow!

she’s no longer yours!
as she has already closed the doors!
no…! dont tell her that you still love her!
stop hoping that things will still be the same as they were!

can you just stop?!
i beg you, boi!
stop early if you don’t want me to destroy…
everything.. that you can still… enjoy!

fire me up! and wait til i get out!
don’t wait til i shout…
coz i can end yah without a doubt!

PAYASO

isang ngiti mo lang…
masaya na ako.
mapatawa lang kita
kumpleto na ang araw ko!

kung minsa’y mukha na akong gago
minsa’y ako na ay natutuliro
hindi alam kung ano ang gagawin
paano ba kita patatawanin?

minsan paulit-ulit
pasensiya na kung makulit
ayoko kasi makita kang malungkot
kaya pilit kong tinatanggal ang mukha mong nakasimangot

mukha na ba akong tanga?
sobra na bang kahiya-hiya?
gusto mo na ba akong patigilin?
o gusto mo nang umalis at hindi na ako pansinin?

hayyy… ang hirap naman nito!
pero ayos lang kasi heto ang gusto ko.
wala akong dapat ireklamo.
basta ba masaya ka, ok na ako!

hangad ko lang naman ay ang mapasaya ka…
at ang makita kang tumatawa…
heto kasi ang aking trabaho…
bilang isang… PAYASO…

missing you

i see you everytime i see someone in pink
it just makes me think
especially when i see someone your size
i always picture you in my eyes

i dont want you to get me wrong
because i find it difficult to look for a line in a song
the message sometimes aint exact
it cant tell the whole fact

You’ll gonna ask me if im alright
yes i am.. even if i’ll be awake all night
do You actually believe me?
aww.. c’mon.. im not crazy..

this aint any lyrics that we can search in google
it seems to be a riddle
but no its not
its a result of how the mind blows out
and what a heart can shout

what the heck is this? You might ask..
no… these words aint concealed with any mask
what You read is what You get
dont believe me? wanna bet?

im not sure if im still making sense to You
i know You’re still busy on the queue
am i giving You a hard time on this?
or should i just tell You that its You that i miss?

problema

kaibigan…
ako ay tinamaan…
nanaman!

malamang sabihin mo
hindi na ako natuto
para na akong gago
hindi na ako nagbago

ano ang magagawa ko?
mahal ko ang tao.
ano ang sasabihin mo?
alam ko na… “e di pigilan mo ang nararamdaman mo!”

pero tol, iba to!
mas kumplikado
hindi ko alam kung pano ko ikukuwento
pero tangina… parang ang labo!

sa ngayon, hindi pa niya alam na may alam ako
pero ewan ko lang kung balak niya ring sabihin ang totoo
hindi ko pa naman alam ang buong kwento
kaya ayaw ko rin magsabi sa kung kanino
kahit nga sayo, hindi ko masabi ng deretso

bakit pa ba kasi ako nagpatihulog
alam ko naman na mahirap ang sitwasyon
ako rin sa huli ang mabubugbog
waaahhh hindi ko alam!!! hindi pa kumpleto ang mga impormasyon!!!

nahahalata mo na ba kung gaano kagulo?
hindi ko pa naikukuwento ang lahat pero parang wala nang direksyon ang mundo
hindi ko alam kung kailangan ko ba problemahin
pero minsan kasi… hindi ko maiwasang isipin.

eto ang dasal ko sa amin
di ko nga alam kung ako ba ay Kanyang patatawarin
“Diyos ko, pwede Niyo po ba itong palagpasin?
susubukan ko na ito na ang huli kong kasalanan at pilit kong kakayanin…
O Panginoon, sana huwag Niyo po siyang hayaang umalis…
Mahal ko po siya at hindi ko matitiis.
Diyos ko, ako po sana ay Inyong patawarin…
Gagawin ko po ang lahat para hindi siya magalala sa akin.”
ayos lang ba ang aking dinadalangin?
ano pa kaya ang puwede kong gawin?

malamang magtataka ka… kung ano itong kasalanan na ito…
ano ang iniisip mo?
heto… bigyan kita ng palaisipan…
tingnan mo ang Sampung Utos at tandaan mo ang araw ng aking kapanganakan.

may idea ka na ba?
tungkol sa aking problema?
kung mayroon man…
sa susunod nalang natin ito pagusapan.

ayaw ko pa talaga magkwento sayo
saka nalang siguro
kung nakapagusap na kami ng seryoso
ang hirap kasi ng ganito
parang tinutuldukan mo na ang kwento
kahit hindi mo pa alam kung paano ito tumakbo

wag mo siyang sisihin o pagbintangan
ako ata ay nagtatanga tangahan
wala namang may kasalanan
lahat ng to, walang may kagustuhan
nangyari lang ang dapat mangyari
magiging maayos din naman ang lahat sa bandang huli
ako lang ata ang gumagawa ng sarili kong problema…
ewan ko ba.. para na akong tanga
hindi ko alam kung ano na ang aking ginagawa
natutulala nalang ako at namumutla
sana walang makahalata
atin atin nalang sana
kasi hindi naman kailangan pang malaman ng iba

sana huwag mo muna siya husgahan
unang una..dahil walang sino man ang may karapatan.
dahil kahit alam ng tao ang katotohanan
tangina! hindi sila Diyos para siya’y pagsabihan!

mga taong hindi mo alam kung tunay na kaibigan
kung makaisip sa kapwa parang malinis pa sa puting kapaligiran
kahit mga paring nagsesermon sa misa
kung makapagsalita parang kala mo wala silang maling nagagawa
tao rin naman sila at nagkakamali rin
sana naman ay maging ehemplo sila para sila ay sundin

pero halata namang kung magsalita…
parang hindi nila pinapahayag ang mabuting balita.
masasakit sila bumitaw sa mga biktima
kasi parang sila ay kinokondena
ito ba ay tama???
kaya nakakawalang gana minsan magsimba!
mga paring kala mo’y tutulungan ka umakyat sa langit…
pero ang totoo.. ang mga nagkasala ay naiipit!
nakakasawa na…
mga ibang tao talaga ay masyadong mapanghusga!
hindi kayo Diyos! mga tangina!
mga walang mga karapatan!
masyado kayong naglilinis linisan!

pasensiya na at nawala na tayo sa usapan
nadala ako ng emosyon at hindi ko na napigilan
sobrang umikot na kasi ung mundo ko sakanya
at lahat baka lahat na ng kabaliwan ay magagawa ko na

pinupuntahan ko siya sa opisina
kahit na mahirap at mukha akong tanga.
inaantay ko lang kasi siya makasakay ng taxi
kaya pag nakakasama ko siya, wala pang trenta minuto… oh diba? ang iksi!

muntik pa ako masubsob sa eskalator kakamadali
para lang makita siya at mag baka sakali
baka kasi mayaya ko kumain para makapagusap kahit sandali
at malaman ko ang lahat para wala nang ikinukubli

mahigit kalahating oras ang layo ko sa opisina niya
pero pinilit ko nun takbuhin ang madulas na kalsada
makasakay lang kagad sa tren
at abutin siya kasi baka ako makarating dun ng ten

badtrip! ano ang gagawin ko?!
malamang sabihin mo… “aba! malay ko!”
oo nga naman.. kasi hindi pa ako nagkukuwento.
kulang nalang sigawan ko sarili ko ng tarantado.

masarap masaktan
marami kang matututunan
kaso tanga ka na
kung inulit mo pa
pero ewan ko.. inulit ko ba?
hindi ko na kasi ata maalala…

gusto kong umiyak!
at tumawag ng uwak!
tara! inom na tayo ng alak!
tangina! ang saya ng buhay ko!
seryoso…
masaya to!
kaso kung mahina lang ako…
malamang… matagal na akong wala dito!

ang hirap ng ganito
nawawala ka na sa sarili mo
parang wala ka nang pakealam sa nangyayari sayo
kasi… siya na ang mundong iniikutan mo!

hahahahaha ayos ba tong ginawa ko?
hindi ko alam kung para sayo ito.
o kung para sakin lang talaga?
kasi sobra na akong natatanga.
o para sakanya talaga tong tula?
kasi siya ang dahilan kung bakit ako nakapaglathala.

hayyy… hanggang dito nalang muna.
kasi ako ay may ginagawa pa!
naantala na ang aking trabaho
pero ok lang… minsan minsan lang naman ganito!

Solid na pagkakaibigan,
walang kalimutan,
walang iwanan,
sama-sama sa lahat… pati na sa banatan!

here’s what i wanna tell yah girl

i wanna say i miss you
but i cant
i wanna say that you’ll stay
but i wonder what you’ll say

baby i think im fallin’
why do i feel my heart tremblin’?
you give me this unexplainable happiness
i just cant hide this from the rest

ohhh wow…
i think im crazy now
can you teach me how?
teach me how to stop now

i think you can notice my words
i think you can notice my actions
geezzz im too careless
it seems im entering another kind of mess

why are you so nice to me
you plainly make me happy
but i dont wanna think that you like me too
but why does it seem that we always wait for each other
and now making up with the wasted time

i smile when i see you
but do you smile the same way i do?
c’mon baby… im sorry
i know its not right but im fallin for you really

out of the blue i wrote this stuff
i should be doin’ somethin’ tough
answerin’ cases for the day
but here i am thinkin’ of you and here are the words that i wanna say

im fallin’ baby
but would it still be possible for you to catch me?

the words ‘i do’
just tears me in two

i dont want yah to think of your past
but things aint that easy as both of your words are written at last

damn… babe… if it were not for that ring
for sure i’d be doing another crazy thing!

can you just wear mine instead?
i promise…i’ll try that there will be no more tears to shed!

girl… you make me so happy
but how can things fit to a tee?
of course i want you to be free
im just so out of the ordinary
i need you to stay here with me
but things are just impossible to be that easy

can someone stop me?
i need to be free
but i just cant take my eyes off her
else, everything is in complete blur!

hold my hand… girl
and just let things swirl
let’s make the world revolve around us
and ride with the last passenger bus
leave everything behind as if there’s nothing to worry
it’s just you and me… no need to be sorry

im out of my league
im sure people will shower us with intrigue
i dont care.. im happy
but i also care for you baby
so let me wake up from this dream
i wanna scream!
help me release this steam!
i love you babe to the extreme!

help me, i wanna scream!
i wanna release this steam!
i love you, girl… this aint a dream!
i love you… to the extreme!

ano ba talaga?

ang hirap bitawan ang isang tao
lalo na kung natutunan mo na siyang mahalin
hindi mo alam kung paano mo bibitawan
ni hindi mo nga alam kung paano mo sisimulan

parang mayroon na nga akong ibang gusto
pero pangalan parin niya ang lumalabas sa utak ko
masyado na ako napapalapit sa isa
pero nasasaktan pa rin ako sa nauna

ganito ba talaga pag ikaw ay napamahal?
parang lagi nalang ako nauutal
hindi ko naman talaga siya gusto nung simula
ewan ko ba kung bakit ako bigla rin napatula

english nga sana ang gagawin ko
pero nahirapan ako
o eh ano ngayon?
ano ba kasi ang meron?

hindi ko siya mapakawalan
iniisip ko kung hindi ngayon, kailan?
hindi ko rin naman kasi malaman
ako ba’y mahal din niya talaga? ewan!

yun kasi ang mahirap sa babae
hindi mo alam kung ano ang gusto mangyare
sinusubukan ka ba talaga?
o nagpaparinig na.

kaya minsan hindi mo masabi
para kang aso na hindi matae
walang magawa kundi magantay
hanggang sa ikaw nalang ay maratay

ano ba ang kailangan kong sabihin sa kanya?
eh kung sabihin ko ulit sa kanya na mahal ko siya
sabihan naman nya, ako’y nagdadrama
ano ba talaga?

oo napamahal na ako
kaya nga hindi ko alam ngayon kung mukha na ba akong gago
umaasa… nagaantay…
taena… kailangan ba, ako muna ay mamatay?
iiyak kaya siya kung nakita niya ako na nakahandusay?
lalapit ba siya para sampalin ako?
para lang malaman kung buhay pa ako?
o pipilitin kaya niyang ibangon ako at ilagay ang ulo ko sa braso niya?
at tingnan kung ako’y humihinga pa?

bakit ba ganito ako magisip?
o siguro dahil sa ngayon.. eto lang ang aking trip?
pero… mahalaga kaya ako sa kanya?
o ako lang ay lubusan lang umaasa?
ano ba talaga?

kasi naman…. bakit ba kailangan magkaganito?
totoo naman ako magmahal ng tao
seryoso din naman ako
bakit kailangan mauwi sa pagkalito?
naguguluhan na ako!

ano ba talaga?
mahal nga talaga kita!
eh ako? mahal mo ba?

malamang kung mabasa mo eto…
sasabihin mo nanaman sakin… ANG DRAMA!
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!
taena!

ano ba talaga?
gusto ko nang makawala..
pero di ko magawa!
ako ay nalilito naaaaaa!!!!

ano bang gusto mong gawin ko?
para lang mapaniwala ka na eto’y totoo
ipagsigawan ko sa tao?
bakit hindi…?! maniwala ka lang… ok na ako!

para na akong tanga
paulit ulit.. parang sirang plaka
ano ba talaga?
mahal kita! ayaw mo ba maniwala?

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if dreaming would be the only way
for you to stay
with me by my side
i would wish to sleep forever
and always say never
to wake up so i can ride
with the things easier and better
just like continuously reading a love letter

am i still making sense?
do you still get what im saying?
i dont know if im in the right tense
what am i portraying?

im not thinking of anything right now
but im asking how
how can i release the thoughts in my head
i wish i can let go of it before im dead

things are clouding my mind
and i cant feel anything from behind
floating astray
looking for a better way
to where i can go from here
trying to face my fear

looking at nowhere
at a pitch black background is where i stare
breathing
thinking
listening
whats hap’nin?
is my world still spinnin’?

its one o’clock
still awake and waiting for my world to rock
everything seemed to stop for a moment
did someone put cement?

someone is nudging from behind the screen
with two gummy bears red and green
there are messages that are still unread
why wouldn’t i stop this first with my aching head?
so i can know whats hap’nin
but would it make a difference and make my world start spinnin’?

i start to scratch my head
what do you think she said?
i think i dont want to read it
i just want to write more and just sit
on a lousy computer chair
and think of something that seems fair

lis’nin to a song
i want to know what’s wrong
is it a sin to ask for a miracle?
im just hoping that everything is just an obstacle

why are they like that?
they all seem unfair
when would they give us a fair share?

lis’nin to a song
that i gave her some time before
its not that long
but it means a lot more

she’s the one who made me write again
only difference is that im not using a pen
what the heck?!
does that even matter?
so what if im using notepad?
stop it before i get mad!

Princess of Disguise
the song that’s playin
im not sure what’s the meanin
but it sure is somethin

i dont know what state i am in
i want to kill myself with a pin
wait.. do i need to drag this file to the recycle bin?
coz im talking nothing and it wont make me win

what’s with this?
would a reader understand what im sayin?
coz even i dont know what’s being written
or am i just badly beaten?

butterfly knife
the song of yesterdays life
i want to use this and end it all
i wanna break this wall
before my world will fall
would i end up devastated? and just crawl?
crawl away to oblivion
if that is the only solution

i dont know anything
about what’s happening
where can i get some light?
to my answers as dark as night?

i am still young
with a sharp tongue
where would i go?
and how would i grow?
im lost
just like a ghost
who came from nowhere
and im going to get lost in thin air

your favorite song is playing again
and the question that’s on my mind is when
its the song that you want to be played on your wedding
i just wish for a happy ending

i got disconnected
is this even related?
im gonna read the messages now
could you please tell me how?
i dont know what to say
but i wish she’d stay

here i go
but wait
what’s my fate?
i fear the words that im gonna read
Lord please help me…im in need

sentimyento ng isang kaibigan

uso na nga ata talaga ang mga litrato ngayon
hindi tulad noong unang panahon
kailangan mo muna ipadevelop bago mo masulyapan
kasalukuyan, ito’y hindi na kinakailangan

ito ang sentimyento ng aking kaibigan
na may kasintahan
pero napamahal sa larawan
sana’y hindi siya maguluhan

ang tao sa litrato na pangkaraniwang pinagmamasdan
kala mo hindi totoo at sa panaginip lang mahahagkan
parang imposibleng makilala, makausap o kahit man lang kulitin
pero paano kung makita mo siya sa personal… ikaw ba kaya’y papansinin?
tila’y pangarap nalang talaga kung tutuusin.
kaya ang litrato nalang niya ang maaaring mahalin.

kaso nung minsan… sa isang mensahe, siya ay sumagot!
kasiyahan ay biglang bumalot
sa isang taong sobra nang nababagot
kaya ngayon siya’y hindi na malungkot

buti nalang aking naalala
na may pagasa pa na makilala
ang tao na aming iniidolo
sa isang pagtitipon kailangan lang pala naming dumalo
kaso malabo makita sa personal
kasi ang Mhaezthro ay nasa malayong lugar at ang paguwi ay sobra pang matagal.

‘yahoo!!!’ ang sigaw namin!
para bang droga kung patuloy naming iisipin!
yehey! at bilang nalang sa daliri ang araw
sana’y Sabado na para siya ay aking madalaw

nabuhayan ang aming loob
dahil ang litrato na aming nasisilip
ay parang isa lang panaginip
pero totoo pala siya
kaya kami ay ubod ng saya

parang mga batang bibigyan ng bagong laruan
na para bang makikipagaway kung hindi napagbigyan
sabik na sabik na sa araw ng pagtitipon
sana ang pangako ay hindi sa lupa maibaon

litrato lang ang kanyang hinihiling
gagawin ang lahat kahit sa kalsada’y gumiling
matupad lang ang pangarap na makuha ang litrato
na galing sa kanya mismo
at may bonus pang dedikasyon… “para sayo Mhaezthro!”

pixel carving…

minsan ba… naranasan mo na… ung girl na like mo, may possibility nang ikasal na sa future?
ung tipong, ok kayo as friends. if ever na maging kayo, no prob. nagji-jive kayo. nagkakasundo naman. nagkakaasaran pero walang tampuhan. walang pikunan. walang away. its like this kasi.. parang like ka rin nya. parang she also shows some interest..though in a way na..ok kayo as friends (kasi un nalang ang pwde eh) saka hearing some words from your friend na reason kung bakit kayo nagkakilala. kasi, alam mo un? tipong cya pa minsan babati. cya pa magyayaya kumain…in a friendly way. alam mo un.. tipong walang ilangan. basically, parang the two of you are just close plain friends. wala ung factor na parang like mo cya na tipong ang atmosphere ay nanliligaw ka or something at tipong nagpapaligaw naman cya. alam mo un. its not exactly that she is still entertaining you. because she knows that marriage is possible soon. and she’s not the one who’s like playing along. and also, alam mo naman in the first place na she’s taken. that she can be married next year. at ikaw ung tipong ayaw naman makasira sa isang relation. at ang intensyon mo lang is to be friends with her. knowing that there’s a possibility that she’ll get married, and the only thing that youre doing.. is… caring for her in the background. or even yet, loving her in the background. to make it short… both of you know the limits and the possibilities. both of you trying to stay away from possible corruption of present situations. thus, both of you only longing for a nice, meaningful and lifelong friendship.

tpos iisipin mo, wow… ikakasal na cya. thinking that you would be damn proud and happy for her. tipong… u cant wait to see her wearing a wedding gown. awww… siyettt… imagining how gorgeous she will be on that day. tipong u wanna cry for her on her wedding. and the reason for those tears is because of mixed emotions. of course, kasama na dun ung.. thought na.. u like her. then its her wedding day. its like u wanna fall down on your knees and be so much happy for this person knowing that she’ll be more happy with her soon to become husband.

i bet, hndi mo pa nararanasan un. maybe i am fortunate in such a way. coz i still do experience these types of events in my life. parang ang cute. parang ang sarap ng pakiramdam. pero parang ang sakit din in a way. kakaiba ung pakiramdam. its just like.. wow!

what if you were in my shoes…? what would you feel? kaso, hndi eh.. u’re already happy with someone. maybe this is one of the priceless things that a single person can enjoy. exploring life. experiencing different types of happiness, pain, different levels of emotions.. etc.

ohh well… its like, when that day comes.. i wanna buy a dslr camera with a good quality lens, flash accesories and take every seminar needed with alot of practice before her wedding day. and when that day comes… im gonna take a lot of solo picture of that girl in her wedding gown… in every beautiful angle. in every part of the church. and… afterwards… love her… thru her picture. and temporarily… get hurt for a while. thinking and realizing that each pixel of her would have a deep carve in my heart, my history and of course… my life! wherein tomorrow, everything is gonna be new. and yesterday is gonna be my past. hoping that when i wake up the next morning, i have already moved on. and again, start loving someone else who, in turn, will teach me another lesson to learn.

such a flavorful life… sigh…

paano ba magmahal sa litrato?

taena.. pano magmahal ng tao sa litrato?
kung madalas mong mkita at pwdeng masuyo?
nahulog na ata ako sa isang tao na hndi dapat.
pero ako’y tao lang at magtago ng nararamdaman ay hndi sapat!

pooootang ina! ako’y isa nanamang makata!
pasenxa na at wala akong magawa!
litrato nalang ang mamahalin…
sana pwde ring suyuin…
ang hirap kasi ng ganitong sitwasyon…
sobra nang nagwawala ang aking imahinasyon!

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madali lang magmahal ng tao sa litrato
lalo na kung hndi mo pa siya nakikita o nakakausap
hndi masakit. hndi nakakapanghina. hndi nakakalito
litrato lang nya ang iyong hinahanap hanap

pero pano ba magmahal ng tao sa litrato…?
kung ang taong un ay madalas mong makita… makausap.
mahirap isipin… masakit sa ulo
ang hirap tuloy bumuo ng pangungusap…

badtrip… nasasaktan na ako
may nararamdaman na ata ako sayo
ok lang sana masaktan
pero ang mahulog sayo ng tuluyan…
ay isang bagay na hndi magandang mapagusapan

gusto sana kitang sisihin
kasi parang lagi kita gustong suyuin
saglit palang kasi kita nakilala
pero naramdaman kong parang iba ang aking mapapala

sana nalang pala hndi na kita nakilala
para ang aking mundo ay hndi muling mawala
sapagkat kung ika’y mamahalin ko sa litrato
may pagkakataon pa na hndi mabuo ang ibang plano

noong panahon na wala ka…
hinahanap hanap kita
di malaman kung ano ang pwdeng magawa
dahil sa kakahanap, akoy nagsawa
ako na nga ba’y nahuhulog na?
sana hndi pa…

minsan, hndi ko maiwasang isipin
na hawakan ang iyong kamay at sabihin
na napapasaya mo ako dahil sa maraming simpleng bagay
na minsan lang maramdaman sa buhay

parang ayoko na kitang mkita
bawat saglit na lumilipas parang ako ay iyong nahahalata
hndi ko na minsan mapigilan
kung pwde lang sana… mahalin na kita ng tuluyan

pwde bang sabihin ko ng minsanan?
tpos bukas kalimutan mo ng biglaan?
at walang magbabago..
ganun parin tayo
pero mahuhulog parin ako
ang hirap naman nito!

siyett naman oh!
gusto kong manapak ng tao!
sakto pa ang kanta na naririnig ko
parang para sa iyo..?

ayoko na!
pwde ba?
nung nagsisimula palang, nasabihan na ako
hinanda ko naman sarili ko
pero bakit ganito?
sadyaan ba ng tadhana to?
badtrip naman oh!

mahal na nga ata kita
pero hndi pwdeng ipahalata
mahirap kasing pigilin
kaya sa litrato nalang kita mamahalin
pero papaano kaya?
kung ganito at wala akong magawa…
kundi ang mahulog sa laro ng tadhana!

life… unpredictable? heck…yeah!

kung alam lang natin dati ung mga magiging mga itsura nila ngaun nung HS tayo noh? alam natin kung cno liligawan natin at hndi bibitawan or hndi papakawalan.

ahahahhahah pero kahit ganun, we will still end up with someone. who is…
already destined for us. even before love came into our mind.

when we are just little kids, we dont know anything but to enjoy life. our first love is not someone..but something..that certain ‘thing’ is just playin around. we always fell. getting hurt physically. most probably our first physical teachers in life. the times when we fight toe-to-toe with our friends. learning how to use a bike. rollerskating. running. we stumble. we get hurt. we cry. but we enjoy. at the end of the day… we will still laugh…smile. and think that the day was full of adventure. then tomorrow, we look and take another challenge on how to handle the day. with our physical pain still intact on our wounds.

yeah…elementary. we learned the physical aspects in life.

highschool, we learned the emotional aspect. handling puppy loves. the young at heart falling for the first time and being reckless.

college, we learned and gained experience in the social aspect. losing our closest HS friends. meeting new different people who…in turn some of them didnt helped you out, but used you. took advantage of you. teached you things that was not right and beyond what you expect to learn. for short, u thought that u met good people. but in turn, they were just bad influences. your real best friends were your friends in highschool. i concur to that belief.

and now, we use those skills we learned in those main stages in our life. we may be weak at some of those stages, but in this stage, we need to master them simultaneously. we need to know how to use and balance them for us to survive.

we are now living on a jungle. on our own. with little help.

those were the times that we want to visit. not just because that it was fun. but because it seems that there is something missing. that we left behind in those stages. it may be because its the weakest in all of the three. and the hardest thing to master. to handle things emotionally. to deal with it. to get around it.

ohh well.. life…

now… we are facing another stage. another challenge..to add to the 3 challenge that we need to master all at the same time…the financial stage. we need to learn how to master the financial aspect of life. be financially productive. its a new one.

yeah…life.. how exciting.

breathtaking…

picture lovin’ thru the screen

picture lovin’

i was out there lookin’
di’nt know what im searchin’
i stumbled on your pic
and there i stood meltin’ like a candle stick

girl..yah make me smile
would yah talk with me for a while?
ohh…such a pretty face!
i could shake mah head hard and fly to space!

here i am starin’ at yah from the screen
far away from the lovely scene
ohh baby i just love starin’
would’ya mind if i start carin’?

i’d like to know yah but yer too far
and play yah a song with mah guitar
but how can i… baby?
meetin’ yah is just a maybe..

paintin’ words thru yer digital shot
thinkin’ of a better plot
lookin’ for a perfect spot
tryin’ to untie the freakin’ knot
that separates you and me from the cyber yacht

i will just love yah thru yer pic
this way, it wont give me that kinda kick
i think there’s no chance for me to burn a wick
coz all i have is one heck of a trick
that’s by lovin yah from a mile
with a simple honest style
i know i wont walk yah down the aisle
but hey… at least yah made me smile!

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my four cornered spiral world

Welcome to my world!

im really not into blogging. so.. the first posts here may sound crappy for most people. but i dont give a damn!

its my Neutral Cosmos anyway. you’re in my realm…travelling through my labyrinth of life. i hold the key for its alpha and its omega.

you’re in a cage surrounded with a fog full of my thoughts. behind bars of steel made out of my words. trapped within the reach of my wild imagination.

the eerie scream of fear
the howling cries of pain
the boisterous jest of joy
the frantic berserk of over-flowing emotions

all these… you dont have a choice. but to either listen or ignore. because you’re here…in my inner sanctum…my…neutral cosmos!

why neutral?

its an unbalanced realm. crazy. wild. unimaginable. unpredictable.

i am the god of my own world that i create. the rightful master. the only creator.

i try to balance things thats goin on inside the maze that i created. if i can still get out of it. or if the persons who’s involved can also get out. if not. i try to gauge myself if i can still set them free. if they would allow me to save their asses.

this is the world that im living in…

welcome…to my life!